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I appreciate you.
I'm surprised LiveJournal is still a thing. Glad it is. So many things have happened in the past 15 years. So many people have come in and out of my life. I'm blessed to have known so many good souls. I'm wiser for having known the bad ones. I thank each of you for the way that you have shaped me and the lessons you have taught me.
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Being an adult.
I've noticed that being all grown up is for the birds. I'm 30 years old there are somethings in life that I should just not expect at this point. I've had no children, and am most likely never going to have any. To an extent I've accepted that, in others ways not so much. It's hard to want something that you know your partner never will. I'm ( Read more... ) -
Question the time line. Warning!!! Girl thought process in motion....
I wounder how things might have been different if Robbie and I got together ten years ago. Would we have fizzled out with a quickness? My real question is would we have saved each other from a whole lot of pain and suffering? Would it have been worse?? I make a pretty good enabler, that could have been a problem ( Read more... ) -
A new year, a new start.
This will be a good year. It's off to an awesome start. I've run across some good friends that I haven't seen in a long time. My job just ended, layoff. So I've got an opportunity to find employment that makes me happy... or at least something that doesn't make me want to kill. I got kinda tired of that ( Read more... ) -
Guilt.
No matter how hard you try to be a good person some times you just can't. I had to end it... I couldn't take it anymore... I was unhappy... it wasn't meant to be. The spark died 2 months in. At the end of 8 months I'd had all I could take. I tried to give them time to get a paycheck to go with... I tried to give warning.... they did okay the ( Read more... ) -
Wow, I haven't posted about the goings on....
So tomorrow is going to be awesome. I've been on medical leave from Teletech for the last 3 and 1/2 months. I had to have back surgery.... go figure, all that time people didn't think there was anything wrong... there was. I had an operation on my back and had a ruptured disk removed... lots o' pain. Now I it looks like I had an operation to ( Read more... ) -
Question everything.
I've spent to much of my life just trying to get by.... to much time hating today and waiting for tomorrow. So I say fuck all that. I was the most happy when I was a practicing pagan. So now I just need to get back into the community, the loving accepting community.... Hold the drama of course. Can you have the pagan community without the drama ( Read more... ) -
Where's the love?
It doesn't make a difference what you try to do for someone, the don't give a fuck. Wash dishes, cook, take care of the animals.... sweep, mop.... here I am Cindafuckingrella and what do I get. Bitched at at 2:00 am because I didn't wash dishes a 2nd time in one day. -
Today's not the greatest.
I've had worse days, I've had better. I'm finding it very difficult to date someone so much like me... and at the same time so different. We are both used to being the one in the relationship in control of or making decisions about the same things... kinda weird. At the same time we have vastly different back grounds.... Never thought I'd be ( Read more... ) -
everything sucks, posting will begin soon.
Will edit later, making sure bugs are worked out on the computer.