if i were to die tomorrow, what would you do?
so... i went to a funeral today. i didn't know the person, but it was my uncle's father (my uncle that married into the family) and my entire family went to support him. it was weird, but it almost made me wish that i was religious. this guy was "such a good catholic" as they kept saying over and over, but it makes me wonder what a really good religious person actually is. haha i kinda wonder if it would be too late for me, not that i want to really change my life all that much. i almost want to marry a person that is religious to be exposed to that aspect of life. no one that is overly dedicated, but a particular faith would be nice. but just to know that if there is indeed a heaven (which i believe in) that this person definitely had a spot up there. i was kinda also wondering what would happen to me if i were to die right now. i'm not part of a church or anything, would i even get a traditional funeral? that kinda makes me sad that it's not certain. would a priest or anything even have anything good to say about me cause i'm not religious at all? then if i were to die soon, would people know how i feel about them? i'm guessing most likely, but i'm not positive about all people, whether they actually know the extent to which i care for them. if anyone that reads this is in doubt, then please ask me. i would never want that left unknown. then i thought about everything i've done in my life so far, and the stuff that i haven't done. are there any regrets? umm... pretty much not, everything is a learning experience, and i am a firm believer in the fact that everything happens for a reason. everything. i would hate it if i were to leave this life with stuff unaccomplished. a few certain goals that i have in mind that would be a must, then a few on the side that i would love to do as well. hearing about a death, and actually going to funerals, always makes me think about and contemplate life and death as a whole. the fragility of life seems so blaringly present, yet most often it is taken for granted. anyway... today was just one of those days, but i wanted to reiterate that i love you all and my life wouldn't be the same without you :) thank you for making me smile and have a good time, and for supporting me when i need it. i hope that at some time or another i have done the same for you and that i continue to do so.
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