Episode 27: Temporary High...

[mandalin66]

These are my confessions

Comments

[pattymayo586]

i think everyone realizes at some point that they are doing some things they don't like. i think it is better to be slightly disappointed in one's self and change then to lie to yourself that you are right and that everyone else is against you. then you just have an over-enlarged ego and end up really lonely. i feel the same way, like i made some bad choices and fell flat on my face. mine are very minor in nature but for someone as OCD as i am they seem huge and i feel the same magnitude that you felt. but as we all say "live and learn." i'm glad we lived, now let's learn. can't wait to see you. i love you amanda! xoxox
♥ patty

[mandalin66]

Yaaa I know what you mean, I'm just glad that I'm catching myself now rather than while I'm sittin in a jail cell somewhere or something!

[mickeyblueyez]

I have to say Manda..... I never thought you'd stoop to that level. I am a little disappointed but I am glad you realize your mistake. I love you and I hope you never do anything like that again. Its one thing to go out and have fun its another to risk your life for a temporary high. I know you know that though..... I'm not preaching! Please Please Please be careful. I would be devastated if anything ever happened to you.

[mandalin66]

Dont worry K...I've DEFINITLY learned my lesson. It's good to know that you care!! I love you toooooo!!

[tamreh]

that's awesome you can talk to your mom about everything without her disowning you or anything. i don't think you're too fucked up bc you def have your morals still intact enough to realize what you're doing and be conscience of it. the real amanda is still there i can tell, and that's what's important. :)

[mandalin66]

LOL...This is actually the first time I let her in on anything like this in a while...I was soooo scared too cuz I thought she was gunna like send me into drug rehab or something crazy like that! I have to say though, telling her did make me feel much better, and all in all i'm feeling better as a whole, especially when I know that I have people like all of you guys and all of my freinds there for me! We all have to hang out sometime, especially this summer...I only have 6 more weeks left!!

[t_ray]

manda i am really glad to hear that you've come to these realizations and want to move on and be more focused. That's great, and I'm glad you're ok :) so i agree with tam, as long as the true amanda is still around...yayy

<3tan

[mandalin66]

Thanx tanya!! And don't worry... I could never lose track of myself, I have too many people around me to keep me in check...lol..i miss you i never see you anymore!!! :( But I only have 6 more weeks left so hopefully this summer will be awesome!