I've given up on making plans. On paper right now I am living the most awesome life ever and have exactly what I wanted for myself a year ago, but it turns out that the reality is a lot more like reality. Which isn't a bad thing at all; I've just discovered that moving somewhere, or going to a certain school don't automatically make everything wonderful. So even if things get off track and you end up in a place you didn't intend to be things can just as fantastic or as shitty as they could be in the place you wanted to go.
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I won't say that I've gotten nicer, maybe just less arrogant? I hardly ever correct anyone's grammar these days...I realized that it sounded pretty jerky. Which is pretty much why I don't make LJ posts anymore. When I reread my old posts, I feel like I sound overly cynical and pessimistic and downright complainy. That's just really not the person I want to be these days.
As far as being lucky, I don't know that I'd necessarily agree with that. Certainly I am blesssed, and I wouldn't want to change my life for anything. However I agree with Maura, I really think that we fool ourselves into thinking "As soon as I get ________, then my life will be great." Be it a person, place, or thing, it's never going to satisfy us. As soon as we attain what we think we're looking for, we realize the flaws it brings with it and move onto another goal. We're an imperfect race, completed only by Christ.
"I am where I am now because I obeyed God." Yeah, seriously that's a reminder I needed to hear just now! I just had to make a really tough decision, and I feel terrible about it, but I know it's the right thing. It's comforting to think that the reason I feel bad right now is because I obeyed God--as weird as that sounds... I guess because I know there's a plan behind it, and so I don't have to worry. :) Thanks again.
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As far as being lucky, I don't know that I'd necessarily agree with that. Certainly I am blesssed, and I wouldn't want to change my life for anything. However I agree with Maura, I really think that we fool ourselves into thinking "As soon as I get ________, then my life will be great." Be it a person, place, or thing, it's never going to satisfy us. As soon as we attain what we think we're looking for, we realize the flaws it brings with it and move onto another goal. We're an imperfect race, completed only by Christ.
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Yeah, seriously that's a reminder I needed to hear just now! I just had to make a really tough decision, and I feel terrible about it, but I know it's the right thing. It's comforting to think that the reason I feel bad right now is because I obeyed God--as weird as that sounds... I guess because I know there's a plan behind it, and so I don't have to worry. :) Thanks again.
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