the victim's thrill

[mandarie]

i colour my hair when i'm feeling depressed or out of control. tonight, for the third time in one month, i coloured my hair. i like it. but how long will that last really? for two weeks? two days? we'll see. it sounds silly, and maybe it is, but i think it's something more psychological. i can't sleep. normally i'm struggling to keep my

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[odbfan69]

here's my advice for you or anyone (but i bet you can see it coming):

listen to more steely dan. like a lot more.

[commonpple]

Yo, you're not alone... I colored my hair again on Friday. I think I have a cold today, but let's get together soon.

[incessantlychic]

Dana went through that, and she would add different colors to her hair like, every week. Then, one day she just randomly flipped out on me and started screaming and crying and all she said was, "I don't know who I am! My hair is 20 different colors." I told her she needed something stable, so I colored her hair one even color, all over, and she felt a lot better. But you know Dana, she was always crazy.

Mabey there are bigger things happening in your life, that you can't control. Good or bad. And you color your hair a lot because, inside, that's the one thing you CAN control. Even if it's as simple as hair color.

[anonymous]

Well, you can stand there and think about how your going to take the first step, or you can do it.
Just sit and think about what you want, the smallest detail for right now, to the next ten years..think about it like you were doing it in real time, and if you don't like something, its your plan, so change it. When you've finally got everything into place, do it. Not only will it give you direction, it will give you motivation, and if you screw up along the way, there is noone to blame but yourself, its your life, don't rely on anyone else for direction.
I hate the feeling you describe, so thats what I did, and its working thus far, we all live life, but no one shows us how to live it, goodluck with that.