vent session

[mandarin_mint]

So today is Jenn's birthday...and I sent her flowers and called her. Go me. Yet, I still feel like she doesn't care. I feel like no one cares. Really..in like the past two months, none of my friends have called me. Not one, (except you Micki), and yet, I'm the bad friend. I just don't get it. How much of myself do I have to put out there to get

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[micki_mx3]

i neeeeeed you manders! lol.
seriously girl i am soooo right there with ya! it's been so hard to frickin get up with people. everyone's so indecisive... they don't even give a yes or no for hanging out. i just want um to be straight with me. if they're busy, they should just say so... but please don't pussyfoot around shit. so, there ya are. i'm just as sad as you. so i say we go get drunk! lol. then we can recruit new friends ;-) and i still have bunches to catch you up on! so def get up with me. i work again tonight 5-9, then i'm free ALL weekend.
LOVE YA! (i'll always be there for ya babe. no stress) <3~ Micki

[killer_pixie]

i know you and i have hardly ever even spoke to one another, and i know we've both made half-assed attempts at pursuing a friendship in the past by speaking once or twice in depth but we never got anywhere, so this could be a lost cause since it's failed in the past... but anyway, getting to the point now...

judging by your posts in your journal, you and i have a lot in common. i see myself in what you write and what you feel. so i don't see any harm in us someday becoming friends. i just wanted to put that out there. even though we're not close and we hardly know each other (despite the fact we've been around each other numerous times over the last 5+ years), i feel for you, and whether we become friends or not, that's not the issue... i just hope things work out for you.

love,
amber

[mandarin_mint]

thank you so much amber. it really means alot to know i'm not alone. i wouldn't mind attempting the friends thing again too.
love- amanda