day 3

very, very sad. hoping this doesn't last too long.

wondering how he is. missing the things that are so unique to him.

very sad.

i've been thinking a lot.  and made a decision.  went through with the decision.  now i'm kind of just waiting it out, waiting for it to not hurt so much and really looking to God, praying about my future, getting excited about my future, being hopeful and open, trying to start over a little bit. well, a lotta bit i guess.  praying for the heart of ( Read more... )

this is one those posts where i don't feel like i have much to say but feel i should update on my life a little bit.

1) moving in a week and a half to 55 oliver street.  sad to see this place go but i think i'm ready.  here's what the front of the new place looks like:


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so the other night at the bar where simone was demanding that all of us dance like crazy to celebrate her "last night of going out" before she moves to india, a strange thing happened ( Read more... )

This is a ridiculously cute video of my brother and sister.  Watch it and love it.  They biked a mountain where they live in Riverside, CA.

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today i watched the movie reign on me.  go watch it, it was great.  and you know there are so many kinds of crazy.  and sometimes crazy can mean disabled, maybe emotionally maybe physically maybe developmentally.  the guy in the movie made me think about the people i work with every single day, how it might look like to everyone else that they are ( Read more... )

mmm.  fall time again.  at first i was resistant to change.  i said:  leaves!!!  stop falling immediately!  i am not through with summer.   but i guess now i am ready for it.

you know, i hate change.  i have always felt this way.   i am just no good with transitions.  i get worried and anxious and most of all, sad for the past or for things to be ( Read more... )

so i have really mixed feelings right now ( Read more... )

worst fucking night in a long time.  this kind of night reminds me of why i needed to move out in the first place.  i did all this crap to get today off, come home and go to the fair and spend time with my family and maybe have a clam bake tonight ( Read more... )

but. now. we'll never know ( Read more... )