"I cannot count the times I have cursed our lack or urgency. If ever I love again, I will not wait to love as best as I can. We thought we were young and that there would be time to love well sometime in the future. This is a terrible way to think. It is no way to live, to wait to love."

- Dave Eggers

I finally found something that accurately describes what I would call my spiritual beliefs ( Read more... )

She left the pub at 1:13 am after spending most of the night on a barstool, laughing up at him and leaning her body against his shoulder - much too close considering that her boyfriend was out of town. She hugged him goodbye and could still feel his eyes on her as she clicked across the street in her boots and opened her car door ( Read more... )

It's hard to go back to sleep after answering a 3 am crisis call ( Read more... )

Protesters who don't want to be ID'd usually park around the back of the clinic, around the corner of Alta Arden. We can see their cars through the fence near the entrance, but can't read the plates. I let Eileen know that I'm going to go write them down, and she tells me that I should probably drive around there ( Read more... )

I'd love to learn how to play the cello.
I like to picture myself straddling one made of beautiful, dark wood while I sit barefoot, my elbow and wrist one with the bow as I slowly draw across its strings. The calloused fingers of my left hand, disfigured but beautiful, would move steadily up and down it's neck.  My hair would vaguely hide my eyes ( Read more... )

I cried when Susie first read this to me in my car. I was driving and she was reading it from her phone and I was trying really hard not to blink so that she wouldn't see, but I did anyway. And then I sniffled.

And she didn't judge me for it.

Going through stuff from college...

Found the part of my essay that I read at Take Back the Night when I received the Jen O'Hare scholarship.

I started at Chico State in 2006 as an Animal Science major. I wanted to be a veterinarian and had worked with small animals my entire life leading up to college. I wasn’t, however, prepared for what I ( Read more... )

Towards the very end of the day my boss walked into the front to find me sitting with my head in my hands, my elbows resting on the file of the woman who has been giving me panic attacks for the past week that I've been on call ( Read more... )

On the drive home I saw something out of the corner of my eye, flying above the freeway ( Read more... )