(no subject)
too many crazy things have been happening lately, heaps of references to my past that I thought had been and gone and I would never see again, and yet it has come up again, so i figure it si LJ time....
on the 2 May my sponsor was 'forced' to withdraw his application for my temp business visa. i'm not going to get into it just now, all i have to say about it is that i'm still furious with immigration because I believe they are the ones who were at fault, but we can't prove it just yet because they are unwilling to release any information on the matter, especially to me. also, the minimum wage requirement has increased as of 3 may (coincidence???? i doubt it) so I am even more difficult to employ now...not impossible of course.
i went to a GLITF meeting the other night with Jennie. Of course it was only the 2nd time in 10 years that the guy that runs the thing and would be the only one that could help us, did not attend the meeting. It was really weird being there, especially because it was almost exactly the same as when Kim and I attended those meetings, I even sat in the same super squishy it's-impossible-to-pull-yourself-out-of lounge. So far I've recieved no email or phone call in response to our enquiries. It would probably be by a miracle if they can do anything for us because we have no hard proof really, that we've been together for 1.5 yrs (such as joint names on bills). What's worse is Kim's name is still on my mobile bill as the owner of the account, and I am still in the middle of closing the joint bank account as well. yay.
The other day, all day I had this feeling I was going to see (gaynor's) Lucy, I dont know why I just did. Then while I was sittin on the train at roma, i saw her! She hopped on our train for one stop, and she got to meet Jennie as well. But I hadnt heard from her in well over a year and a half, yet I knew I was going to run into her. And of course she was lovely as always, gave me a hug and everything. We obviously didnt get much chance to talk because it was all of one stop, but yeah...
ONce again I have a small crush on another (straight) female named Rebecca. Now how does that keep happening? Poor Jennie I think is a little concerned or mostly just feels a bit threatened, as ya would, but now it's making her worry about other people checking me out as well. A girl on the escalators was checking me out at myer the other day and I had no idea ...not really, until Jennie goes 'she was just totally eye fucking you!! and I was standing right behind you!!' I'm not worried, i just think it's weird that again i have a crush on someone with that name. And it's just more backup to my theory that i am completley reverting to about 2 years ago. well not exactly, but I'm having heaps and heaps of reminders of the past coming up all in this one week and I dont know why or what the heck is going on.
I even ran into some people from where kim used to work, and yeah true i live down the street from the place, but in the year and a half ive lived here, i could count on one hand how many times ive even spotted one of them from a distance, let alone had them stop and ask me how i'm doing and if i've heard from Kim.
So I was aleady starting to get freaked out by all this stuff (and more, i just dont have time to list it all...) and then to top it all off, Skye's mum sent me a text by accident this morning. I had convinced myself ages ago that she had changed her number, just so I would keep myself from trying to contact her, cause i do think of her often. She really treated me like i was her own daughter and u tend not to forget it easily when someone has treated you so well. Anyway, I was reminded of her a couple of times now, especially by this massage therapist on the island that before she even told me, i knew she did massage therapy just becuase something about her reminded me so much of Rinell. Butyeah, this woman just spoke to me the day before I was told about the end of my sponsorship, and because se reminded me so much of rinell and something about my past, i knew some big change was about to happen in my life, i just hoped it wasnt as big as this sponsorship thing, but somehow i knew about that too i think. i know it sounds nuts, but somehow i think i knew it was coming. true i went into shock then freaked out about it all the same, but somehow i knew. I had even thought a few days before it happened, to start taking pics of everyone i knew so i wouldnt forget them later on, and i thought about doing stuff in preparation just in case it happended then convinced myself i was just being silly...of course i should have prepared a bit better (joint accounts and phone bills damnit!) after i found out of course, i continued on my picture collection and had others taking photos of everyone else for me as well. a lot easier to do when u work for a photo shop :) But yeah, back to Rinell. I haven't heard from her in nearly 3 and a half years...so why'd it happen now? it was a txt sent to me instead of someone else by accident, but hey! something surely made that happen.
I have 24 days to get out of the country or find a new sponsor. and that's about it in a nutshell. Ihave heaps of people over here lookin out for me, and really hoping the best for me. A lot of people on the island thought it was just an evil bad bad place, which in many ways, yeah it was, especially in their occupations, (photo shop wasnt owned by the same people). But a lot of good things and good, supportive people have come out of that place. Even people that know u for less than a week, could be near to tears when they find out you are at risk of being kicked outta the country and have to leave the island. there are definately some nutcases/people to watch out for there, but there were just that many of them that were probably some of the nicest people i've ever met. Strangely enough, the week that was had to leave, mysteriously heaps of people were told to leave or (mostly) chose to move on to 'bigger and better things'. My building started out as 10 of us girls living there. as of last week, there were only 4 people left, and 2 of them are leaving today and tomorrow. theyve moved a couple of new people into there, but yeah. All departments are now short of staff because so many people have left the place. I think in one week we lost nearly 16 people. Normally there is a pretty big turnover at that place, but nothin like this past 2 weeks.
I'm really starting to wonder what the heck is going on in the cosmos or whatever ya call it. What is going on with these massive changes, which arent just happening with me (though I have to admit I am mostly concerned with myself because I'm currently sitting in limbo and no matter what I do next, it's going to be pretty life changing as well...my whole worlds been turned upsidedown).
and that's all i have to say.