I think the worst thing you could do right now is convince yourself that YOU screwed it up and that it is all your fault. There are two people in a relationship and for every problem, argument, or disagreement, it is essential that both people work at it. You may feel that there are a lot of things that you could have done differently, but there are a lot of things he should want to fix too, and both of you have to be willing. If you sit there the whole time he is gone convincing yourself that everything is your fault, it will just eat you up inside (and it's not the truth). I know you love and miss him, and that you have a lot of free time to think about it, but you're not going to know the outcome of all this until he is back and until you have time to really talk about it. Letting it consume you this early is not good for your health. Stay strong and keep yourself busy; I'm glad you are working out, etc. Now you just need to start hanging out with me more!!! I miss you and I love you and I am keeping you in my thoughts.
I know Zack had faults too, but most of it really was my fault. I did some really horrible things to him. And I... well, whatever... never mind. It was mostly my fault though. I haven't been at all like the girl I was when we got engaged and I really think I ruined it. Well, we both know I ruined it.
We should get together this week sometime! I miss you.
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We should get together this week sometime! I miss you.
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