i think im going to head down to pismo pretty soon to see barret...i would give anything to love barret like i love sid or to have sid love me like barret loves me but nothing ever works out that well for me. i dont think ill ever love anyone the way i love sid just because i dont think ill ever risk letting anyone in like i let sid...i dont know ( Read more... )

i totally fucked up last night...i totally cant drink anymore...i drink to fast and then im like BAM drunk. i got totally trampy with some guys in a band it really isnt me to act the way i did but i think my confidence is at a low from everything thats been goin on with sid and i and i think i just really liked getting some attention from some hot ( Read more... )

i totally sold 7 pendants tonight on etsy...it always makes me feel so going knowing people want to buy my stuff

sid and i have worked most everything out...there are a few more things that we will deal with but pretty much everything is cool...i feel so much better now just knowing whats going out

i think this weekend im going to get fucked up on Champagne. my dad has two bottles that he gave me...im not really celebrating anything its just what i have to get drunk on...

i now have a sales rep for my jewelry...its kinda crazy totally just feel in my lap. i can wait to see what comes of it...also im pretty sure im mostly over the whole break up thing, im happy to get back to just taking care of myself not that i ever took care of sid but just to not have to even worry about someone else, its going to make my life so ( Read more... )

do you just sometimes wish you could be totally immune to emotions...its not fair how fast you can fall in love and how long it takes sometimes to fall out of love...the whole thing is fucked

soldering is not as easy as i thought i think im going to kill someone its pissing me off so bad

well so much for my posting everyday lol...im almost done paintinmg thank god and i hope to never do it again i cant wait till everything is done so i can get moved in there and move on with my life. ill post pics soon

today i really did nothing. i woke up at like noon and sid and i just hung out in bed for a hour, then did some laundry and looked around online for dog breeders...sid and i want to get a blue pit we might get two we dont know yet but we want one...anywho im going to go back to cleaning and sanding and get everything ready for paint tomorrow.