I am slowly losing my mind. Well, not as slowly as I'd like, but it is going. It's the worst feeling in the world, to be losing control. It's as if I am falling unconscious, like I can't breathe. I hate how I just lay around all day. I wake up and cry, I am wasting the only time to myself I have. I just don't know what to do anymore, or how to fix ( Read more... )

I will inventor a door that is always locked! Yes, I know it already exists, but still....besides mine would be better ( Read more... )

Everyone's birthday used to fall in April it seemed along with Easter and there was always a grand celebration, WAS! Back to the real world ( Read more... )

But if I stopped asking would everything still be fine, would I know? Obviously I don't know now so I ask, but if I stopped what would happen? I guess it's one of those questions that is just part of the routine ( Read more... )

I beat the trash can forrest! Yay ME! The trash can had it's own ecosystem that was cohabitating with us and I politely evicted it today with the help of some bleach, the bathtub and LOTS of paper towels and me making funny noices. After 4 hours of cleaning the kitchen is only half clean but I am satisfied and tired so it will wait. (No you don't ( Read more... )

On my way home today I had a sort of epiphany. I realized that I am my own person and that I am not tied in any formal way. I was driving and Baba O'Riley came on and I was jamming out with my hand out the window banging on the side of the car like I have done every nice day forever. However something was missing and I couldn't figure it out! So ( Read more... )

But is anything really ever known and is there the right choice, or the safe choice? I've decided that you can think and plan all you want but there is never really a smart decision because everything has it's drawback somewhere whether it is obvious or not. So when you are making "the big decisions" in life how do you know that you are making the ( Read more... )

Dark days are here again and I am trying my best to conceal them but failing miserably, as I fail at everything else. As for other parts of life, they suck just as much if not more. Crista has decided she is moving out, which leaves me with $720 of rent to pay alone along with all my other bills. Yay! Today's highlight was looking at my bank ( Read more... )

So it was just like I was 6 again, one of those mornings where you wake up before your mom comes in to get you ready for school. Only you never wake up early, this morning something is wrong. That is how I woke up yesterday. It was the random virus deal, where you puke all day and have a fever, you mostly sleep and then feel little better and ( Read more... )

My birthday and the dreaded doctor appointment! Nothing is ever really as bad as I think it will be. If I don't blow things out of proportion who would ( Read more... )