so i think things are getting better.. i've been doind pretty well keeping myself busy this week.. with the help of my teachers all scheduling tests this week.. last night i was finally able to get a full night of sleep.. that's the first time since it happened.. and i remember my dream and it didn't make me sad ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting here in the library, waiting for my next class.. and just thought i'd update on everything ( Read more... )

so it's the day before valentine's day.. and i just thought i'd get this off my chest ( Read more... )

so this thing with felipe is getting worse and worse.. i don't see him during the week.. we don't talk unless i call.. and even then the convo goes no where unless i make it.. i don't know what's worse.. being in a relationship like this or being alone ( Read more... )

so this week has been okay.. finally adjusted to my schedule, for the most part.. not studying nearly as much as i should be, but there's plenty of time for that.. haha.. i have my first quiz today in math.. kinda edgy about it since he seems to expect a lot out of his students.. hopefully, it won't go too bad.. i also have a test in my grammer ( Read more... )

today was pretty crappy.. school started.. and that's when the trouble started ( Read more... )

so yesterday my little roommate came home from skiing and had to be carried home by Matt, her bf!! my poor little roommate totally scrubbed on an easy run from the rain and stuff over there.. i felt so bad for her.. after matt went to work we hung out, ordered pizza and watched harry potter.. even though it was a good time, i would have rather not ( Read more... )

it's been 3 days.. things are ehhhhh.. it's like the fears that i had before have suddenly reappeared.. all the insecurities are back in full force.. i'm, once again, afraid of smothering him.. leaving him unsatisfied.. and doing just about anything that will cause another confrontation ( Read more... )

well needed update ( Read more... )

so today i'm 21.. um.. yay..

no plans.. doesn't bother me as much as everyone else.. more woried about classes and stuff