011. Rooftops
Rooftops.
Hanmin
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Where am I right now? Sitting in my room? Wrong. Watching TV in the living room? Incorrect. Walking around the block for fresh air? Try again. Do you really want to know where I am? Fine I'll tell you. I'm sitting on top of our neighbors roof watching you kiss him..............and I hate it.
What makes him so special................he doesn't love you like I do..........I know because I know about the things he does behind your back...........in that very room.
I see him leaned down and whisper sweet nothings in your ear. My stomach turns.
Ughh I can't watch this anymore. I got up slid down the ladder waved goodbye to the ahjumma next door who kindly lets me use her roof and walked to the dorm. At this point I really just wanted to sleep.
"Sungmin"
I turned....it was him....stay calm just because you loath him doesn't mean you can't be nice to him.
"Yes? " I said.
"Can you do my laundry?" He asked
NO! I can't do your stupid laundry, do your own damn laundry. Normally I would be more than happy to do the members laundry.....but not him, But of course I would do it anyway.
"Sure Heechul just wait a little while."
So let me clarify this because for you it may be a little confusing so far. My name is Sungmin, I am part of a 13 member boy band and I love Hankyoung our Chinese member, but....he loves Heechul. Why? I don't know.
Heechul doesn't treat him right actually he treats him horribly. He bosses him around, calls him names, etc.
What's that smell? THE LAUNDRY IS BURNING?? How does that happen?!?!?!?!
"What's that smell min?"
I turned and wished I hadn't, for what I saw nearly made me faint......Hankyoung......bear chested.....and wet from a shower.
I watched as a little driplet of water fell from his chin onto his chest and down to his belly button.....hot.....but then something hidious woke me up form my oogling
"SUNGMIN YOU IDIOT YOU BURNT MY CLOTHES"
I really burnt his clothes? I didn't think that was possible...
"I'm.....sorry" I said still a little incoherent.
"YOU'RE SORRY?"
"Chul, don't be like that to Min, he didn't mean to do it. You should be doing you're own laundry anway."
......I know secrets about Heechul.....I know every Friday when Hankyoung goes out for drinks with Kangin.... Heechul and Siwon mess around in the very room they were just in. But Hankyoung didn't know....and I would never tell him, it would hurt him to bad.
"What are you defending him now? Do you love him now?"
"Don't be stupid Chul, me and Min are only friends you know that"
I felt like crying. I loved him and he would never love me. The only one he loved was standing right in front of me....and I didn't see the appeal.
"Hmph But Han" Heechul siad whiningly "You should always take your lovers side"
"Come on babe don't be like that" Hankyoung said seizing heechuls face with his hands. "You know I love you" His face getting closer to Heechul's with every second.
I walked away, It was both painful for me to see and gross. I felt like throwing up and crying.....more like crying though.
I went into my room.. Ahh my room i felt so comfortable in it. i was completely pink except for the dark wood furniture. My room was exciting like me. Why couldn't he realize that Heechul was not exciting he was a horrible cheater.
I layed on my bed flat on my stomach and buried my face in my pillow. Outside I heard nothing but crickets and slow traffic far away. I needed to clear my head.....I needed to go to my roof.
The bed sqeaked under my wieght as I got up. I flung up the window and climbed to ladder attached to it. I walked down the ally and once again waved to the ahjumma . As I was going up the ladder i heared a soft vioce say "Poor boy, must have a lot on his mind today." You have no idea. I did and it needed clearing.
When I reached the top of the roof I chose to sit on the opposite side of where I usually sat...afraid to catch Heechul and Han in the act. This time I faced the city. Seoul was so beautiful at night. A billion tiny lights lit up the sky making it shades of purple blue and green.....It almost looked like te aurora boriealus. I looked down and saw a coupke walking along the streets hand in hand....Why couldn't I have that... Stop thinking about it Sungmin just lay back and relax. And I did for a long time...bu then something woke me up.
"Hey" I heard a husky voice say
I whipped around and saw him
"Why are you here?"
"Shut up" He said
I did......I was kind of scared right now honestly..Han had never been the forceful with me, he was always clam and kind. But i had to admit he looked like hell right now. He was breathing hard liek he had just run a 50 mile race, his eyes were drating everywhere as if to catch anything unseen, and he was sweating.
"Han what's w"
"SHUT THE HELL UP"
Wow
"You disappear for and hour and you expect me to be clam! I though you ran away I thought you left me! Why would you go somewhere with out telling me!"
He pacing around now like he was lecturing a little kid. I wonder if i can talk now.
"But Han.....I come here almost every night"
I guess I could
"yeah! But at least I know where you are then, I didn't see you leave this time!!!!"
"What do you mean"
"God Min" He said throwing his hands in the air " You are so oblivious, do you really not realize that me and Chul are FAKING!!!!!!! I've liked you for so long and Heechul knew that so he asked if I wanted his help, he said that if you got jealous you would realize your feelings and confess. But you've done nothing! Do you hate me?"
What?? I was all I lie?....................I really didn't care though. At this point all I cared about was that somehow this beautiful man before me loved me too.
"I feel.....the same"
"What?"
"I said.....I feel the same"
he looked like he was going to run me over as he approached me...like a bull with a mission. But instead of killing me he kissed me.
It started out very soft like a layer of cotton was touching my lips, but then it suddenly got violent. His hands gripped my cheeks pushing my face back to deepen the kiss, he parted my lips and let his tongue slide in. I was on fire right now. Hankyoung the one I love is kissing me....and it feels amazing, Our lips were moving in unpredictable and indesribable ways; ways that only hand my lips could move. When we needed air we broke apart. Laying our foreheads against eachothers. Panting.
"Hankyoung?"
"Yes?"
"You just ruined my innocence"innocence"