Hi,when I read this,it reminds me so much of how I was feeling 6 years ago.I was 19 at that time and I never thought that I will see my 20th birthday
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I was just reading what you said about therapy and counseling and being nervous to go there...I understand that,so much.I only see a shrink once,at the hospital and it was mantadory,they wouln't let me leave without seeing him first.I remember feeling so uncomfortable,so I basically tell him what he wanted to hear and never went to see him again.
Wow, I felt like I was reading my own story when I read your post! I went through a major serious depression my sophomore year of college. Everything that had been building up my entire life came together at that point and hit me, if that makes sense.
It it helps at all, I feel, not 100%, but 100 times better now. It's been a lot of work, but it's totally worth it. I made the gradually made the choice to change my life in big ways. I moved back home where I had a support system (i.e. my mom who would bug me if I started sleeping all day, friends who would bug me if I started avoiding them, etc.), I got a job (it's pretty incredible what a job will do for your self-esteem and for getting some structure in your life), I eventually started seeing a counselor...
She taught me a lot of things about how to stay together. Exercise (cardio, get your heart-rate up) is really important, even if it's for ten minutes, twice a week. You have to move, change your scenery, get endorphins going in your brain. You need to be doing something, i.e.
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my whole "thing" is that, i hide everything to the point where that i can't find it in myself to admit to my parents ive been like chronically depressed the past ...9? years
so getting a therapist would mean i would need a fair amount of money (especially if medication were involved) that i wouldn't have.... what type of medication do you take? and like.. is it super expensive ? lol or like reasonable enough to if i got a job and worked enough to keep myself busy that i would be able to pay for what i needed?
Yeah, that complicates things a bit. Hopefully you'll eventually be able to talk to your parents about this (it really does help), but I totally understand not being at that point yet, or maybe that's not even an option, period, I don't know.
Let's see, my copay for my therapist visits are $20 with my insurance. If you have insurance through your parents, though, they'll find out. I take Pexeva, which is similar to Paxil. It's an anti-depressant. It you're manic/bipolar as well, it'll probably be more complicated. I pay $40 a month for mine, though, with insurance.
Your school should have some type of counseling program, though, and usually it's something like the first visit is free or something like that. I know it's scary, but that might be something to consider. A counselor could tell you what you needed as far as counseling and medication in that first visit so you have more of an idea of what you'd be "in for" personally.
my schools counseling program is free, butttttt the website implies if you pretty much even mention suicidal thoughts or self mutilation, regardless of your age they tell youo parents admit you somewhere, etc....
first off, your comment contains such horrible grammatical errors that I am not even sure what you mean in parts of it.
Second- you are reading posts in a community for people who are manic depressive. This is a place for individuals to "use this place to vent" so that we can "stop keeping it all inside" and you go out of your way to comment on a post made over four years ago to put someone down.
you thought I would have something attention grabbing to say ?? this is not a creative writing blog, this is a blog where people with issues can come to vent and find support.
I hope that you learn better grammar, and some manners. Suck it.
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I was just reading what you said about therapy and counseling and being nervous to go there...I understand that,so much.I only see a shrink once,at the hospital and it was mantadory,they wouln't let me leave without seeing him first.I remember feeling so uncomfortable,so I basically tell him what he wanted to hear and never went to see him again.
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It it helps at all, I feel, not 100%, but 100 times better now. It's been a lot of work, but it's totally worth it. I made the gradually made the choice to change my life in big ways. I moved back home where I had a support system (i.e. my mom who would bug me if I started sleeping all day, friends who would bug me if I started avoiding them, etc.), I got a job (it's pretty incredible what a job will do for your self-esteem and for getting some structure in your life), I eventually started seeing a counselor...
She taught me a lot of things about how to stay together. Exercise (cardio, get your heart-rate up) is really important, even if it's for ten minutes, twice a week. You have to move, change your scenery, get endorphins going in your brain. You need to be doing something, i.e. ( ... )
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my whole "thing" is that, i hide everything to the point where that i can't find it in myself to admit to my parents ive been like chronically depressed the past ...9? years
so getting a therapist would mean i would need a fair amount of money (especially if medication were involved) that i wouldn't have....
what type of medication do you take? and like.. is it super expensive ? lol or like reasonable enough to if i got a job and worked enough to keep myself busy that i would be able to pay for what i needed?
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Let's see, my copay for my therapist visits are $20 with my insurance. If you have insurance through your parents, though, they'll find out. I take Pexeva, which is similar to Paxil. It's an anti-depressant. It you're manic/bipolar as well, it'll probably be more complicated. I pay $40 a month for mine, though, with insurance.
Your school should have some type of counseling program, though, and usually it's something like the first visit is free or something like that. I know it's scary, but that might be something to consider. A counselor could tell you what you needed as far as counseling and medication in that first visit so you have more of an idea of what you'd be "in for" personally.
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the website implies if you pretty much even mention suicidal thoughts or self mutilation, regardless of your age they tell youo parents admit you somewhere, etc....
so lol im nervous about going htere
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first off, your comment contains such horrible grammatical errors that I am not even sure what you mean in parts of it.
Second- you are reading posts in a community for people who are manic depressive. This is a place for individuals to "use this place to vent" so that we can "stop keeping it all inside" and you go out of your way to comment on a post made over four years ago to put someone down.
you thought I would have something attention grabbing to say ?? this is not a creative writing blog, this is a blog where people with issues can come to vent and find support.
I hope that you learn better grammar, and some manners. Suck it.
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