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Gotta get me a teflon shell
came to a final conclusion about what to do about my dad. He'll never change from being the selfish bitter angry person he is that is always trying to bring people down to his level and pick fights so I've just got to let it not effect me. he is who he is. Talking about it won't change the situation. everyone in my real life always tells me the ( Read more... ) -
i don't think I can take much more of this
school is going pretty well. things with my bf are going good. it;s my home life that it tearing me apart. everything i do in my dad's eyes is wrong. he thinks i spend too much time with my bf (I only see him on the weekends, I saw him more when I lived in imy apt an hour and 15 minutes away. I was in a great mood today and he zapped it by being ( Read more... ) -
chillin at the bf's
Typing on my bf's smart phone. So this will probably be a short post. Things are going pretty well I got a lot done yesterday so that's a plus. Dealing with the family issues as best I can. Got chocolates flowers and a balloon for Valentines day and A super sweet card. So I feel very loved :D. Anyway I'll post more when I get on a regular ( Read more... ) -
venting.. a little pissed this morning
so it got down to about -10 last night and my dad turned the heat down to 66 degrees, b/c of this I woke up freezing at 4:30am and couldn't get back to sleep and didn't start to warm up till I cranked the thermostat up to 70. he'd go ballistic if he knew. I turned off my space heater in the backroom last night and turned it back on at 6am, it is ( Read more... ) -
doing a bit better now
I only have two more things left to catch up on in my english 102 class, so that's going better and I turned in my essay which i think turned out pretty well (at least worth a B). Physics has my head spinning, so I don't know what to do about that. I just need to keep plugging away on it ( Read more... ) -
Thank You everyone
for all you're supportive responses to my last few posts. I'm trying to look at the big picture and not focus too hard any one thing and get too obsessed. It's just getting harder to do right now. and sorry about my absense, things were really rough and i have a tendency to to hide when that happens. I've just been freaking out over things in ( Read more... ) -
still alive
been awhile. going through some crazy ass shit right now and stressed to the point of breaking (down)
stress #!: identity theft. someone has been using my soc to open up electric accounts and cable accounts then stopped paying on them and is using my name in Millwakee, WI. I have never lived in WI. so I'm dealing with that bullshit and getting ready ( Read more... ) -
doing better, slowly but surely
I have got to stop leting other people get under my skin and me me re-evaluate my self worth. I just never remember it being this bad. My mom says it always was but Ive just forgotten. which may be true. i remember very little of my life. just in snapshots. anyways. I was feeling vulnerable and i oever reacted. then i spent the next day crying for ( Read more... ) -
grls and guys i need your help
normally I'm the first person to say that suicide isn't worth it and it's a perment solution to a tempory problem however right now I'm seeing things in a darker light ( Read more... ) -
le the new year's resolutions begin!
had a fantstic visit with my pdoc! she said it was a good thing i went off the seroquel XR (b/c of the muscle spasms and twitches) and put me back on 300mg of trazodone at night. I had decent results with it the last time i was on it so i'm hoping it will work out again. and I'm back on nuvigil so I actually have energy today at last! I only had 28 ( Read more... )