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manifest_cereal

I miss you already.... : [

Apr 24, 2006 18:57

I'm going to miss brother so much. I just realized how much. I'll miss waking up in the middle of the night and hearing him typing on the computer on the weekends. I'll miss getting angry with him when he's being annoying. I'll miss riding on the plane with him or in the car with him to see Dad. I'll miss hearing him talking on the phone late at ( Read more... )

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bandocomando12 April 25 2006, 01:22:07 UTC

hey, itll be okay. i know it doesnt help just to hear someone tell you this, but, eventually itll be okay. of course it wont be the same. of course youre going to miss him. i know this, i went through this twice. i know its different for everyone because we all have different relationships with our siblings but i think all the younger siblings go through the same withdrawls when their older brother/sister go away to college. its just certain things that bring memories back. for the first several months both my older brothers were gone, id sleep in his bed, even though it was the most uncomfortable bed in the whole house (i got the best bed because im the baby girl =D) just to remember how he smelled like. id call him a lot and theyd be very short conversations, because i knew he had to do things, and when they werent short, they were full of background noises; a girl squealing because my brother was tickling her. its insignificant, i know, but to me, it crushed me. i used to be the only girl in his life, the only one he'd ( ... )

manifest_cereal April 25 2006, 01:40:23 UTC

Thanks Haley. It's just that everything you described is everything I'm afraid of. Well I guess it's not that, it's not having that. We haven't been brother and sister since I was maybe 8. The things I choose to remember are things that really mean nothing, I just made them mean something so I had something of meaning to remember him by. I can't really remember the last time we actually had a conversation, even a short one. It just makes me sad because really I don't know him at all, and he is the type to stay at school and only come home for holidays. Most people tell me that he will grow up and realize how important our relationship really is, but really, I know him well enough and I know my family history well enough to know that he is going to be just like them, extremely distant and unemotional. I know it sounds like all I can see is the bad, but honestly I have hope. You really put a smile on my face. Thank you.

bandocomando12 April 25 2006, 02:16:55 UTC

Well I'm glad that you do have hope left because you should. I think the only reason I have such a good relationship with my brothers now is because I never had that growing up. When they were little I think they secretly hated me because I got all the attention. I've never gotten grounded to this day. I'm the baby girl, the princess of the family. I'm so spoiled, I called 911 when they were babysitting me when I was 4 or so because they were playing nintendo and weren't playing with me. Never got in trouble for that. haha But seriously, our relationship had to mature a lot before it got to where it is, trust me. I don't want to give you any false impressions. I love my brothers more than life, and I suppose they didn't hate me when I was little, but trust me, we didn't really talk either. How could we, I mean we're 5 and 7 years apart, there's not much to talk about. It was their senior year that they opened up more. I think because they realized that they would leave soon, I don't know. I sincerely hope you're wrong ( ... )

manifest_cereal April 25 2006, 02:26:31 UTC

These are the happiest tears I think I've ever cried!