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I'm considering moving out of my current apartment and into the medlab. It's become like a second home over the years~ <3
[ After a bit of rest, I can only conclude that the memories comign to the surface were his from incidents in the past. Nothing solid is forming; it's more like having instinctual reactions to situations I've never experienced than as though I'm learning from a past mistake. Such memories are typically ingrained deeply in the human psyche. I somehow doubt he was ever injured by Akaya (not intentionally, in any case), but he was very aware of the potential dangers of the power in a way I know only logically.
There are slightly more tangible memories, too. Many do revovle around this medlab and what both he and Akaya were feeling, here. Fear, guilt, but also comfort. For better or for worse, he was going to stick by Akaya regardless of anything.
I understand Akaya's confusion - what it must be like to have two sets of memories and feelings to sort through and determine which are truly his and which died along with the other Akaya from this world. But, ultimately, fundamentally, I think my feelings were much the same as the Yamato Yuudai that died, here. If they were not, I would not be sitting here fretting so much over a friend and teammate. Somewhere along the line, by choice, I made his well-being and happiness my responsibility.
Rather egocentrical of me.
Ah, none of this is really getting me anywhere. Akaya will be fine, I'm sure. More pressing is the matter of Ryou... or more importantly, Ohtori-kun and Shuusuke. Instinct tells me, though, that Ohtori-kun should be here with Ryou. He must be at his wits end between this incident and Kaidou's disappearance. He really doesn't seem like such a bad person, here. I trusted him, anyway. ]
[ Shiiba, I may need to ask your help with the advanced class. Akaya is out of commission and both Shuusuke and I have our hands tied with visiting the medlab. I should be able to return properly after a couple days, but I don't know what the situation will be like until then. ]
[ After a bit of rest, I can only conclude that the memories comign to the surface were his from incidents in the past. Nothing solid is forming; it's more like having instinctual reactions to situations I've never experienced than as though I'm learning from a past mistake. Such memories are typically ingrained deeply in the human psyche. I somehow doubt he was ever injured by Akaya (not intentionally, in any case), but he was very aware of the potential dangers of the power in a way I know only logically.
There are slightly more tangible memories, too. Many do revovle around this medlab and what both he and Akaya were feeling, here. Fear, guilt, but also comfort. For better or for worse, he was going to stick by Akaya regardless of anything.
I understand Akaya's confusion - what it must be like to have two sets of memories and feelings to sort through and determine which are truly his and which died along with the other Akaya from this world. But, ultimately, fundamentally, I think my feelings were much the same as the Yamato Yuudai that died, here. If they were not, I would not be sitting here fretting so much over a friend and teammate. Somewhere along the line, by choice, I made his well-being and happiness my responsibility.
Rather egocentrical of me.
Ah, none of this is really getting me anywhere. Akaya will be fine, I'm sure. More pressing is the matter of Ryou... or more importantly, Ohtori-kun and Shuusuke. Instinct tells me, though, that Ohtori-kun should be here with Ryou. He must be at his wits end between this incident and Kaidou's disappearance. He really doesn't seem like such a bad person, here. I trusted him, anyway. ]
[ Shiiba, I may need to ask your help with the advanced class. Akaya is out of commission and both Shuusuke and I have our hands tied with visiting the medlab. I should be able to return properly after a couple days, but I don't know what the situation will be like until then. ]