I hate it. Why does my heart fuck with me so much? I had so many emotions swimming in my head today. The first having to deal with my last post, and the second popped up unexpectedly. Both have weighed heavy on my heart today and left me feeling drained. I've had a headache and just feel sick.

I feel sick. Something that has happened has just hit me and I feel horrible. I hate funeral homes, I hate death, I hate that atmosphere. I understand that death is part of life, but I hate when it happens. It didn't hit me until tonight and it'll hit me harder tommorow.

I'm about halkf drunk right now, its awesome. I sat over at jarvis's fo a little bit, then I got bored so I went to horror movie night woth james. It was fun.

I feel oh so emo right now. I've been listening to The Ataris all day and it's awesome. I forgot that I liked that band as much as I did. Well, tonight wasn't very eventful. We bought an airhorn and scared a couple of people, but I wasn't in that type of mood tonight really. Man the Ataris got me thinking about girls, and the past few days I've ( Read more... )

I went to school for about 2 and a half hours today, then got sent home. I felt like shit. So i came home watched the never ending story and fell asleep. I just woke up about 45 min ago and had no will to go do anything. I just smoked my last Lucky Strike unfiltered, if you have never smoked a whole pack of Lucky Strikes you can't say your a man, ( Read more... )

I'm sick and it sucks. It started this morning and it's slowly progressed throughout the day and right now I feel like I have so much mucas in my head that I'm going to drown. I doubt that I go to school tomorrow. Well, anyone who reads this the Gang Stars have a show on the 24. If anybody feels the need to go then go, it's at 1123. If you live ( Read more... )

Well, we ventured on the interstate for 3 hours, ona mission: to see The Queers. We got there, we walked up to the door of the Creepy Crawl and got the news that The Queers had cancelled!!@! Everyone just kind of stood there and looked at the guy like, huh?. We did get to see 2 pretty good bands though, then drove home.

well, another night has passed. have any of you ever questioned your being? like what your meant to do or why your here. i know that i have lately. i feel like i'm obsolete anymore.god, i need to get high, and i have come to terms with me smoking pot everyday now. i just don't care anymore. right now it's the only thing that makes me happy so i'm ( Read more... )