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[mansonchick13]

i can't do this anymore. I don't have it in me to keep going. i just want to die. I don't have any hope left. i just can not do this anymore.

I feel so sick and tired. I would go cry myself to sleep but i have no more tears left. I cried all night and today. i have no will to live .

On top of all this there is something wrong with my liver.

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[pschogrl613]

>hugs< I was gonna say you don't want to die, but then I realized I can't tell y ouwhat you want so i'm gonna say I don't want you to die. what's wrong with your liver?

[mansonchick13]

I don't know whats wrong with my liver yet. My dr. is going to run a blood test to find out exactly what is wrong. But she thinks it's inflamed because it is hard to the touch. Also i have an infection in a new sore that has just apeared. I know that i am going to have to have surgery again, and i just can't go through the whole surgery and recovery again. This is about the 20th surgery i have had and i just can't do it anymore.

[khaosmoon]

im sorry ur in such a deep state of despair. I hope things start looking up on u. and may the bright one smile upon u.

-mike k

[mansonchick13]

thank you Mike. That means a lot to me.

[khaosmoon]

no prob bob. :)

[cybizzorg]

*read my journal* :/ I wish things didn't have to be so bad;; But if you ever want someone to hang with and what not... besides, you can't die til after you come see me in concert. :/ and then after that you can't die til I do. :/ I don't like my friends dying, ya know>?

[mansonchick13]

:) i know i don't like my friends dieing either. Thank you for your offer to hang out hon. that means a lot. :)

[deadman1313]

Sweet angel of darkness and light
Breath easily for friends shall take all the blight
No sickness shall attach to your viens
For we stand united unto these things
That your heart has touched all of us
So much so
You are part of us and cannot die
For we hold you up to the sky
Not for the angels or God to take
But for the world to proclaim your name
A goddess one and the same.

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[mansonchick13]

thank you

[_starlit_eyes]

i love you
:hugs:
<3
miss you tons.

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[mansonchick13]

thank you