You could be my unintended ( Read more... )

Am I just being whiny? Or do I not have a clue what's going on to me. Don't start, I'll not let you channel me today. Yeah, unless you know, ignore that ( Read more... )

... Fine, I gave in ( Read more... )

There is an old ceiling fan slowly oscillating behind me. It's electronic whirr mixes with the cold sound of air being forced through the ineffective heater which mixes the otherwise stagnant air. I am somehow comforted by my surroundings. This worries me...

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Coffee + Chocolate tastes like warm water that makes you ill.

Today was a wonderful day. Then why are you depressed? Of course... Isn't it obvious? That's not all though. Yeah, I know. There's always more isn't there. Yes, but why do you hide yours. You know what you say about secrets to everyone else. I do... Sometimes... to some people... I think you won. Great job, now I'm more depressed. So what? You've ( Read more... )

Can not sleep. Absolutely not.

So, am I just the pathetic kid who can't be helped? And are you feeling you need to stop trying? Did you ever? Am I questioning it? What don't I question?

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Yeah, I need some fucking help. Goodnight.

I should be asleep. I have school tomorrow. I need to wake up at 7:30. Like this will happen ( Read more... )

No I can't sleep. What did you expect. 3 hours last night, maybe 4 before that. About the same all of the previous week. I'm not tired. I'm not exhausted. I am bored. I am lonely. I am still the same pathetic being who swore to change a while ago. I stay awake thinking about a few different people, what they mean to me, what they've taught me, what ( Read more... )

It's 3:30 AM. I have to be awake again in 4.5 hours. I can't sleep. I'm burning music for the trip. So much is on my mind. I need sleep: the unobtainable. I should go upstairs and talk to Casey and Phil. They're both awake. Instead I'll make a few more CDs. I'm always burning music. Fuck I'm addicted. Does it pass the time? No. iTunes has a bug ( Read more... )

I was trying to make sense of "Never Gonna Come Back Down" earlier. It's a song done by BT and Mike Doughty (formerly of Soul Coughing). These are the interesting things I found about the song ( Read more... )