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GURGMFUNB I'M FEELING REALLY NOSTALGIC RIGHT NOW... LIKE... I want to cry.
IDK whenever I get like this I just think about how many opportunities I have had to make really wonderful memories, but I never really did... I STILL WANT TO DO SO MANY THINGS! I don't want to wake up one day when I'm wrinkly and old and feel like I wasted my youth pandering to my fears and trepidations. I still want to do so many ACTIVITIES! There are so many things to do, but it feels like there is never enough time to do them in without sacrificing something else... I guess that's just how life is... but I mean UGHGHHHH lol maybe I wouldn't be like this if I had friends in Pittsburgh... *weeps* I should join Geology club, or some club where I can meet people who like to play tennis recreationally and aren't intense about it... or ride bikes or something... I HAVE MY TENNIS RACKET AND MY BIKE HERE but they lay here rusting... lol probably sitting on my bum all the time is making me depressed or something, but man... mom keeps telling me to get friends and that my college friends will last my whole life or something, BUT LOL I DON'T KNOW HOW? I'm not a very open person... well, I'm not open to the thought that people would want to spend time with me or something FFF I remember when I was smaller, I would invite people to go places all the time! I don't know what happened... maybe I should try that sometime... but I'd need to get talking to some people first. GNFMGN somewhere along the lines, I lost my guts.
I feel like I'm emotionally prematurely old, looking back on things like this... like some old lady already regretting her past... but the thing is, I haven't quite lost my youth yet. I've got some fight left in me BUT DAYUM.
HGJRANKRUHIRWIUEHIJFAJBSDFHLJLK iwantahug. :C
IDK whenever I get like this I just think about how many opportunities I have had to make really wonderful memories, but I never really did... I STILL WANT TO DO SO MANY THINGS! I don't want to wake up one day when I'm wrinkly and old and feel like I wasted my youth pandering to my fears and trepidations. I still want to do so many ACTIVITIES! There are so many things to do, but it feels like there is never enough time to do them in without sacrificing something else... I guess that's just how life is... but I mean UGHGHHHH lol maybe I wouldn't be like this if I had friends in Pittsburgh... *weeps* I should join Geology club, or some club where I can meet people who like to play tennis recreationally and aren't intense about it... or ride bikes or something... I HAVE MY TENNIS RACKET AND MY BIKE HERE but they lay here rusting... lol probably sitting on my bum all the time is making me depressed or something, but man... mom keeps telling me to get friends and that my college friends will last my whole life or something, BUT LOL I DON'T KNOW HOW? I'm not a very open person... well, I'm not open to the thought that people would want to spend time with me or something FFF I remember when I was smaller, I would invite people to go places all the time! I don't know what happened... maybe I should try that sometime... but I'd need to get talking to some people first. GNFMGN somewhere along the lines, I lost my guts.
I feel like I'm emotionally prematurely old, looking back on things like this... like some old lady already regretting her past... but the thing is, I haven't quite lost my youth yet. I've got some fight left in me BUT DAYUM.
HGJRANKRUHIRWIUEHIJFAJBSDFHLJLK iwantahug. :C