I thought I'd done it.
Achieved what I've wanted to for the last 6 months.
You were out of my mind.
I'd thrown you away.
Decided you weren't worth it.
And now you've come back.
My dreams.
They torture me worse than you have.
Can my subconscious mind make me lose myself so quickly?
I don't understand it.
I don't want this.
Why is my subconscious mind telling ( Read more... )

 
She lets herself cry.
She allows her sorrow to over come her.
She mustn't let others see.
She's vulnerable.
So easily crushed.
Smashed to little tiny pieces.
She's already broken.
She'll never blame you for it.
Just keep it to herself.
Knowing she's the cause of her own pain.
She contemplates her life.
Is happiness possible?
Will her smiles forever be covers?
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Everything seems to remind me of you ( Read more... )

Feelings.
Unexplainable.
Depressed.
Down.
Stressed.
For what reason?
Who can even say...
Thought process.
Too confusing.
The loneliness.
Seemingly neverending.
What's to believe?
Fallacies?
Who knows.
Who's right?
Who's wrong?
Never knowing the truth.
Did I let myself fall back into the cycle?
Was I ever really out of it?
Or was it all pretend and lies...
Disgusted by ( Read more... )

So what's there to do about the though process of those you can't control?
What do you do when powers of pursuasion fail?
Anything you say falls on deaf ears.
Perhaps not deaf, but unwilling.

What's there to do about the confusion?
Why do you even want him?  
Why would he want you either?
Who are you?
Will you belt the blues like you mean it?
Will you ( Read more... )

Before I ended the friendship that fucked up my life.
just a bit of randomness...of myself...long ago, but some still the same.

I am a raging hypocrite.
I am what I loathe.
I am what I never thought I would be.
I am what I used to completely loathe.
But I can't fight myself back.
All of these things that I believe, but don't follow.
And the things that I ( Read more... )

So this is just something I wrote a long time ago.
The events in a friend of mine's life inspired this.

what do you do when there's a situation you can't do anything about?
watching a person be treated so horribly, and having to sit aside and not do anything.  hating the bullies, the overreacting, some how wishing they would disappear, wishing they ( Read more... )

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away, now it looks as if they're here to stay.

Bad things happen to good people.
Good things happen to bad people.

Being a good person comes with suffering.
Pain.
Why?

Being good just isn't what people want to see or hear. General concern for everyone, everywhere just shouldn't be, right?