a few weekends ago on the train ride back to manhattan, i decided i want to change my life. not necessarly what is going on rite now but my future. i don't want to be in New York anymore. i don;t want to live here when i grow up. i'm moving back to long isalnd this summer. permantly. i have two more semesters of FIT then i graduate with an AS ( Read more... )

i take it back. all of it.

positives and negatives for this past weekend.

+went home

+saw my loves

+saw my phebs

-car made rattling noises

+out to lunch with mom and grams'

-loser friends

+amazing friends

+amazing boy who makes me way to happy

+goldfish fight on train ride back into the city

+diry mexican brother

-walking to gabes

-walking up gabes five flights of stairs

+ ( Read more... )

you know what it feels like when the one thing you know can make you unbelieveably happy just isn't possible? that its something you did to make it not possible and it kills you inside. that everytime you really think about what could have been, not crying isn't an option. that the loss of what could have been is almost worse that losing what we ( Read more... )

i'm not telling no one nothing anymore. i hate hearing everyones opinion. i don't care what you would do or how you think i should fix it. its not about you, its about me. again its not about you, its about me. i hate hearing lectures, i fucken hate it. espically when they have no place lecturing me in the first place. so yea i'm done. i am def ( Read more... )

bored and horny.

xox.

i haven't posted in forever but i feel the need. i am so lonely rite now its not even funny. i know its just a "thing" i'm going through, but still. its not like i even miss a boy or anything bc i don't....i miss my friends. i miss melissa and rachel and kelley. i miss al and pete and chuck. i miss brett and meggie and even james. i miss the fun ( Read more... )

i miss gabe. and i miss jonah. and i miss alyssa and griz and big err and diva and x-tina and all the other 7th floor slores. i can not wait to get back to manhattan. i love it.

anywho...dooty-poops.

xox.

i miss my slores from the 7th floor. i like being home but i still miss them all soooo much. and they are all going to six flags next weekend and i can't go bc i start my new job. sucks ass.

for some reason i am extremly happy with my life rite now and it kind of makes me want to vomit. or jump up and down....can't decide. its a strange time to be ( Read more... )

awsome weekend. i love my best friend. we have waaayyy to much fun when we're together. glad we didn't let a certian lameness bother us.

thursday nite we went over to al's to chill with the guys...i miss them. friday kel and i drove travis, his gf lauren and her best friend kristie to jr. prom. we got lost. twice. driving along foggy and dark ( Read more... )