Don't be silly. I love you, I have my Mark, if not my Marque, and if you ever dropped off the radar again I'd find you.
I know I'm brokereded right now. Things will get better. Don't rush me. Please. I'm suffocating as is. Christmas is going to leave scars, and there isn't even training or practice to help make it better.......
You are my friend. One of the Truest. Trust me to know when I need to be "alone." It is NOTHING against you. Or anyone else I seem to "cut apart from" for a while. Call red if you're really concerned. call dyandros. the three of you can talk. you ShOuLd talk.
I realize that lately I have been far far needier than I have been in the past. I have been trying very hard not to be, not to suffocate you. If I ever do get to that point please just be blunt, I might not get the hint otherwise. Remember, I heal. I understand that you may need to pull away for a while. Do what you need in order to heal yourself. I will never stop being your friend. A heads up when it happens would be nice though. I look forward to seeing you on the other side.
I am suffocating. Something went very wrong last night. I can't focus unless I'm with someone and have something important to focus on. If I don't I seem to blur in and out of existence with shady breathing and while I am President, the body disagrees, and I pass out. Mom won't like this, and I'm scared of winter break for it. I want to spend a week with you, but it depends on mom, alex and my boss. I'm not saying back off, that cannot be said as it would be dangerous. I can't always explain everything. I don't always want to. I don't want to hurt you, going home may actually help, living on the ring hurts anyway...but as much as home? we'll see. Fen might not make Wrake. He might get a worse accusation than deployment....we'll discuss later. Know that disaster was avoided, and I am still here. I love you. Friend, thank you.
PLEASE tell me if there is ever Anything that I can actually do to help the situation. I will do my best to take a step back - not back off entirely just give you some breathing room. But you also MUST tell me if something is going on. I want to help but in giving you breathing room I am trusting you to actually tell me when something is going on. Don't worry about how I will react, I will keep myself reigned in.
I understand about work and family being a major factor in what you do during break. Either way we will most definately hang out. I hope that you feel better soon. I look forward to seeing you :)
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I know I'm brokereded right now. Things will get better. Don't rush me. Please. I'm suffocating as is. Christmas is going to leave scars, and there isn't even training or practice to help make it better.......
You are my friend. One of the Truest. Trust me to know when I need to be "alone." It is NOTHING against you. Or anyone else I seem to "cut apart from" for a while. Call red if you're really concerned. call dyandros. the three of you can talk. you ShOuLd talk.
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I am suffocating. Something went very wrong last night. I can't focus unless I'm with someone and have something important to focus on. If I don't I seem to blur in and out of existence with shady breathing and while I am President, the body disagrees, and I pass out. Mom won't like this, and I'm scared of winter break for it. I want to spend a week with you, but it depends on mom, alex and my boss.
I'm not saying back off, that cannot be said as it would be dangerous.
I can't always explain everything.
I don't always want to.
I don't want to hurt you, going home may actually help, living on the ring hurts anyway...but as much as home? we'll see.
Fen might not make Wrake. He might get a worse accusation than deployment....we'll discuss later.
Know that disaster was avoided, and I am still here. I love you. Friend, thank you.
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PLEASE tell me if there is ever Anything that I can actually do to help the situation. I will do my best to take a step back - not back off entirely just give you some breathing room. But you also MUST tell me if something is going on. I want to help but in giving you breathing room I am trusting you to actually tell me when something is going on. Don't worry about how I will react, I will keep myself reigned in.
I understand about work and family being a major factor in what you do during break. Either way we will most definately hang out. I hope that you feel better soon. I look forward to seeing you :)
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