I'm not going to say I understand, because I can't put myself in your position. But grieving for something you don't have, that comes so easily to others...that seems a very reasonable response to me.
But I'm listening, I'm thinking of you, and sending good thoughts. *hugs tight*
If it makes you feel any better, I was a very unhappy pregnant person..?
Love you guys. I didn't realize Kyla wasn't on the same page, I mean with the whole thing. That sucks. Back when we were TTC with Tempest and I feared that it would never happen it was so, so hard.
She's on the same page as far as wanting to have kids goes. She gets hilariously gooey over babies. But she definitely doesn't have the same crazy hormonal and emotional drive that NEEDS a baby, that I've had for the last couple decades. I do much better with it after a few days, but man, that first visceral reaction is brutal. Every time. I know we'll get there, and the two or so years it will take for us to be in a place to start trying isn't that long in the grand scheme of things. I'm really really impatient for it to be now.
I have to say that in a way I sort of understand. For the longest time that was me. I wanted a baby in a way that I couldn't stand it. It was very.. hard to be around anyone who was pregnant, or to even pretend to experience the joy that they found.
As I've moved on now, and I'm almost to my mid 30's, the need has waned and I wouldn't be very happy if my lady wanted a baby. There's so many options out there of things to do when you don't have children, don't need to find a sitter, don't need to look for things that are "kid friendly."
But because I was once where you are, I do understand that driving need. It blocks out most other things, until it's all you can think about.
I miss you little sister. Hang in there, I can't say things will get better because I don't know, but I'm here for you if you need me.
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But I'm listening, I'm thinking of you, and sending good thoughts. *hugs tight*
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If it makes you feel any better, I was a very unhappy pregnant person..?
Love you guys. I didn't realize Kyla wasn't on the same page, I mean with the whole thing. That sucks. Back when we were TTC with Tempest and I feared that it would never happen it was so, so hard.
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I know we'll get there, and the two or so years it will take for us to be in a place to start trying isn't that long in the grand scheme of things. I'm really really impatient for it to be now.
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As I've moved on now, and I'm almost to my mid 30's, the need has waned and I wouldn't be very happy if my lady wanted a baby. There's so many options out there of things to do when you don't have children, don't need to find a sitter, don't need to look for things that are "kid friendly."
But because I was once where you are, I do understand that driving need. It blocks out most other things, until it's all you can think about.
I miss you little sister. Hang in there, I can't say things will get better because I don't know, but I'm here for you if you need me.
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