I've been meaning to look for a house in LA for a while now. I didn't because I had a better offer for when I was there but seeing that it fell through I guess I'll have to start looking again ( Read more... )

The morning after and I have to face my kids' questioning eyes. Not the best thing to talk about first thing in the morning, because I really don't know how to explain this to them. How to make them understand when I barely understand it. My ex-wife wanted to have them for the holidays but because I was taking them with me she was going to let ( Read more... )

Today started out good... I guess I should have expected this.

Nothing goes right for me... should've known better.

God, then why did it feel so wrong for her to leave... She didn't want to leave, I saw it in her eyes... that look.

Dammit, I should have stopped her, said something instead of just stand there... too proud to say something. Fuck ( Read more... )

Walking with her in the park, her smiling lighting up the darkness around us; we were watching the kids play ahead of us. Whispering to each other, still a little apprehensive because of what had gone on earlier in the day, but none the less still smiling. You can't help but smile when she's smiling back at you ( Read more... )

We're heading to the airport soon, my kids and I. I'm catching a flight to Vancouver, I need her and she needs me ( Read more... )

So... she left yesterday afternoon. That morning was spent wrapped up in each other, trying to build enough memories to last us both while we're apart. The drive to the airport was quiet, my free hand intertwined with hers the entire way there. The goodbye at the gate was spoken in low whispers, we'll see each other again soon, baby... love you. ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving was good. Great food and spending the evening with my sister and her husband, Arianna, Antonio and Amanda. There wasn't a lot of us, and I couldn't subject Amanda to my whole family at once... that'd be too much for any one person ( Read more... )

First off I want to say thank you to everyone who friended me and thought that I have something interesting to say. I'll try to not disappoint ( Read more... )

These last few days have been wonderful. Amanda is in love with me. She faced everything that was telling her that she shouldn't love me, couldn't love me and chose to love me ( Read more... )

I've just had the most surreal moment ( Read more... )