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[mardigrasmaven]

I've been having suicidal thoughts again. I've been trying to find a good job so I won't be a burden anymore but I'm always getting rejected. Even if I have no option of moving up in that job, I just don't want to be a burden anymore... I'm getting tired of being rejected. At least I know if I was gone, I wouldn't burden my parents anymore. The one

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[nyw]

DON'T! It's crazy to think that any amount of money can be compared to your unique, living presence on this Earth. A human life can expand and fulfill its potential, and if money is really such a concern then yes, money can be earned and grown and paid back in the future - but if you go then that stagnates and is just spent and gone. SO DON'T.

[madelyn93]

no.

if you kill yourself, you'll be a emotional burden on your parents forever. they'll forever be guilty, thinking it's their fault. no one wants to live with a dead daughter. and your niece and nephews. do you think they would be comfortable with receiving the money?

money cannot replace a human life. money cannot replace a daughter's love. if you love your parents, hold your chin up.

think about all your past achievements. think of the times you laughed. think of your best friend, of that first crush, of the kid who sat next to you in first grade. think of all the reasons why life is worth living. you've made it past 23 years, why give up everything, just because of a job?

i'm sorry if i'm harsh, but no.
please, find a friend to talk it over with.
or at least take one day, to just forget about getting a job. take a walk in the park or scream your heart out at the amusement park. just don't do anything stupid.

[meiface]

Chelsea, I've had these exact same thoughts before. I don't have a magical solution to not feeling this way, but please please please talk to me if you need someone who knows what it's like.

What I tell myself is that when I start trying to justify suicide through "alleviating the burden" -- that's when I'm making the most excuses and being the weakest and blindest, because it's, in a sense, the easy way out. Because the scariest, bravest thing we can do -- for ourselves and for our parents and the people who love us -- is to keep living and keep trying even when it's hard.

You have worth. Your life has worth. Don't let your depression tell you otherwise.

[runawayxxlovee]

it's so weird. people always told me that suicide was weak; the easy way out. but i could never bring myself to do it. to see the words, "I was too much of a coward to go through with killing myself"

it's odd to read, honestly. to see the core of me written out like that.

i'm sorry. 'i know how you feel.' or at least a little bit of it. we all get tired sometimes, but we wake up nonetheless. can you imagine not waking up, not being able to see your parents or the sky? or whatever makes you warm inside. i can only hope that any of those things outweigh the rejection for you, that you'll hang onto those things when you're feeling awful.

i think you are wonderful. stay strong.