life is good i guess. normal, average. yeah thats better.

i kinda forget what i was gunna write about .. hmm

lots of senior events to look forward to. lots of events in general. im gunna write as many as i remember so i can look back and be like "hey thats comin up soon" ..

• unos night - feb. 6th = <3
• caps and gowns - feb.17th .. ahhh
• feb vaca - ( Read more... )

last night is definitely a blur. but it was much fun. i wish i could list everything that happened but i would miss just about everything.

btw -- who took my parrot bay ?!!! i want it back bitches.

now im off to powernap before dinner at my sisters. yeah i know -- dinner at 2 in the afternoon. its sunday, so that makes it okay.

okay so prom isnt until may .. but me and kristen have already started all the hype about it. magazines and everything. i already found the dress i want. i dont know if its necessarily the one i'll get .. but i want it. it all depends on how much its costs. hoepfully i can find it for cheap. but yeah, i definitely need a date. i have not a clue ( Read more... )

im having conflicting outlooks on life right now. one second, ill feel a lot better than i did yesterday and sunday .. and then the next second, im right back where i've been for the past two days. oh teen angst. oh, you.

me and my dad started fillin out financial aid forms for suffolk today. one of the questions asked if i would commute or be ( Read more... )

im a mess in many ways. im just covering it up. and i know that most people will argue that. but its true. we all have our problems. i have many. and i wish i could put them all into words. but most are just feelings, that are not meant to be spelled out. we all have them. and we have no choice but to let them destroy us on the inside. im ( Read more... )

thats what i really feel like. even though my family was just here and i got presents and stuff, it still doesnt feel like christmas. i though it would've kicked in by now. maybe because my mom and my aunt aren't here. we talked about them for a little while tonight. but it was kinda funny because we were talking about ghosts and stuff and how the ( Read more... )

im gunna go ahead and say that i got the best present everrr tonight. from amy and kara of course. its amazing. a huge collage of ME !!! and all my favorite people of course. but really, its soo "mare-tastic". ♥♥♥ to the max.

and brian and mike got me gift cards from american eagleeeee !!!!! =D !!!

so yeah. its christmas. does ( Read more... )

last night, i had a dream about my mom. its not the first time, but for some reason, this one wont leave my mind. me and kara were walking into my parents room, and my mom was just standing there. and i went over to her and i could touch her and feel her and it was soo real. she was apologizing for leaving me .. and she was saying other things but ( Read more... )

i love the way the sunset glows from behind the clouds. and how it looks on the snow.

i also love decorating the house for christmas by myself while noone is home. my dad will be very happy when he walks in the house tomorrow. and i cant wait because i miss him much.

♥ oh love .. oh you ♥

i think that i may actually be excited for powderpuff and that i actually like it. i think that because i wasnt expecting to feel this way that i cant except the fact that i feel that way. lol anyway. i got my license yesterday !! WOOO. only thing is that idk when ill be getting my car. my dad is going to look at some cars tonight so hopefully ( Read more... )