Ugh ( Read more... )

So I had a (message) dialogue with Brendan about everything. I did it expecting a monologue but to his credit he actually responded. Though I've said just about everything I could say and well whatever he's says is pretty much stupid in that umm it's not what I want to hear so. Enough of that ( Read more... )

To feel closure I have a weird need to compose my thoughts and how I feel about a situation in writing. Most of the time I share it with the person it involves not because I think it will change anything and not that I do it for any sort of response but just because it makes me feel better to know they know what was on my mind ( Read more... )

I need a new back up plan.
I just had a brief conversation with Joey Comeau and it seems he's not the marrying kind.
Which you know I could pretty easily figure is not the case as you know he's not already married.

Again my anxiety founded ( Read more... )

Sometimes I listen to random songs like The Moon is Down and it reminds me of all the awesome parts of high school. I don't even have any other Further Seems Forever than that song.

I may download some Saves the Day and get really nostalgic.

Sometimes I think I put off things just to increase my anxiety level. Well and then sometimes because I don't have money. This month I was able to spare the 40 bucks to get my car inspected and only 4 months late! I've driven to Ft. Worth three times now and I have plans to tomorrow as well and thus I didn't want to keep tempting fate especially ( Read more... )

Daily panic attack mode.
Fuck.

So there is usually at least some period of the day during which I feel like hyperventilating. Usually it's later but it seems today panic attack mode wants to set in early. Woo ( Read more... )

I am going to admit a distinct desire for some officiated officialness on the part of our relationship. Because it's all well and good when we are together but in the time apart I find myself getting more and more stupid by degrees and I know it's that since we are still on an unofficial basis I have no specific claims on him...because you know it ( Read more... )