alrighty let's examine stuff ( Read more... )

well i guess we'll see... a story in the process of developing...
ok so no more posts on this subject for a while.

duh. it's the only way to make out ( Read more... )

i don't know why i'm so scared of everything falling apart.everything is good, or at least i think it is. maybe i just need constant reminder of that. maybe i just need to not be scared and let go a little.maybe i've just been hurt one too many times.

oh crap i'm cleaning...

maybe i'm just really happy. that must be it. yes that is it.

ok so i'm back in santa cruz. and it's a weird kinda feeling. it's home, that's for sure, but something is different. but not in bad way. i feel more relaxed or something, perhaps just content. everything just was so easy. maybe i'm hesitant, just waiting for something to go wrong? i don't really know.

i think i am slowly falling in love with the city of san jose. that makes the 3rd city that i love in the state of california. i think this is a sign ( Read more... )

ok so apparently williston gives me a headache...

and i want to be in california already...

also, the air force is becoming a more attractive offer, and a serious one at that...

today is the only day i ever pray. which says alot about the meaning of this day to me ( Read more... )