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A Brand New Day
I am feeling so much better on so many different levels.
I can't believe I spent so long moping around acting as if there was nothing to look forward to. On the outside, everything seemed fine, but honestly, deep down, I was so effing broken it was ridiculous.
Maybe all it took was a couple months' time for me to see things clearly. Everything seem ( Read more... ) -
Giving Thanks
There are so many things I am thankful for this year. I have learned and grown so much from experiences that seem like they were just 'meant' to be. I'm so fortunate to have been at the right places, at the right times with the right people. So here goes, just counting my blessings ( Read more... ) -
Goalsetting - Cliche but Tried and True
Remember this entry from Oct. 5th?
"So many questions. One thing I know for sure though is, despite the volatile economy, I'm getting an offer by the end of it all. Bottom line. It's what I'm aiming for and it's what I'm gonna get. "
Haha, I sounded so sure of myself. Quite a bit of resolve in there huh? Even if I wasn't sure how it'll all pan out or ( Read more... ) -
Transience
It's gonna be half a year soon since I've left Rotterdam. I can't say that I've made much progress getting over it. I don't think about it as much anymore I suppose, but when I do, the memories all flow back like it all just happened yesterday. How did half a year pass by so fast?
At this exact time last year, I was freaking out about leaving LA. I ( Read more... ) -
時間，境界
我今天又哭了。
這一年掉的眼淚比我一生加起來的還要多。 以前的眼淚，好像很容易控制， 我的毅力好比開關， 說停就停。可是最近毫無措施，哭得很多，很短，很痛。
當時在那裏都沒有哭過，從來沒有， 連分手時都沒有眨過眼， 可是時間越久，心越軟， 爲什麽? 還記得為他哭得第一次，絕的很荒唐，自己怎麽會這麽沒出息。 難道女孩是注定要流淚嗎？所以給了自己一個承諾，以後再也不要為他流淚了。
可是有了第二次，第三次。不僅承諾落空，眼淚洶湧時，每一次比每一次難以逃脫，難以收拾，難以接受。 每哭一次，心碎一次。
我今天又心碎了。
可是不會在繼續這樣，時間雖然讓我痛過，也讓我看的更清楚。 從今以後，他不再是值得我心疼的那個人。以前我聼著他說的話，雖然會懷疑，可是還是選擇相信他。
爲什麽會那麽盲目的信任他呢？儅我旁邊的人， ( Read more... ) -
A Bad Dream
"Why do I have to fly ( Read more... ) -
Busy busy busy!
Senior year fall semester means one thing to all business majors: recruiting. And it really sucks.
With the economy looking the way it is, competition is even more intense. I swear, I've been to a bazhillion info-sessions, networked my FACE off and smiled til I couldn't smile anymore. Not that I don't enjoy meeting new people and learning more ( Read more... ) -
The Hardest Thing
After reading a friend's xanga, I'm inspired to write just a spur of the moment, open, frank, non-summarizing and hopefully short journal entry ( Read more... ) -
Catch Me If You Can =)
Spent two weeks in LA catching up with my lovelies and now it's time to travel again! There are still some people I haven't see yet, but hey, if you missed me for half a year, you could do with one more month right? =P ( Read more... ) -
Home is Where the Heart is... so where IS my heart?
June 30th, hopped on a plane at 10 in the morning and got back to Los Angeles 4pm local time same day.
Apparently when I was leaving Schiphol Amsterdam, I was crying so hard that the customs guy didn't even bother looking at my passport, instead asking me if I was ok and reassuring me that I'll be back in the Netherlands again. Honestly, I wasn't ( Read more... )