Sometimes I wonder...

[mariebeth]

If I'm not just a little bit masochistic.  I know I can be a tad sadistic, yup I'm one of those people who would laugh a little at someone falling over on the street, but then I'd go help them.  But when it comes to guys, I'm definitely masochistic.  I fall hopelessly for the guy who ends up hurting me, because while he can't stay away from me just

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[deichrodler]

I'm close to no help, besides that I can tell you I'm in a quite similar situation this year. It seems to happen more often than one would guess. Things would be a lot of easier if I just wouldn't love that dang guy so much who is easily able to destroy me (even if it's probably not even his fault). :hugs:

[mariebeth]

Thanks :) it's surprising how many people can go through this, but when you're going through it it feels like you're all alone. sounds like we're feeling exactly the same about these guys!

[deichrodler]

It sounds exactly like I feel. I like, gah: love, him so much, but the same time feel how much of self-destroying it is. He isn't ready for a relation either and for particular not with me (and I even think it would have some really bad moments [next to some gorgeous ones, granted] if we tried out), but still I have troubles to get over him. Things slowly began almost a year ago, but it was just this summer when I realized how deep my longing still is. I guess I'll be over him one day, but this moment is far away still. Le sigh!

Let's have some chocolate, shall we? ;)

[susanbones111]

Help me to understand this. Is this a case where Killian is in love with you and you are in love with someone else? And that "someone else" doesn't feel the same way about you?

Good luck with this.

I'm glad things are better with your mother. Life should become a little more normal now, shouldn't it?

[mariebeth]

Sorry, it's kind of a confusing post. Well I broke up with Killian a couple of weeks ago, basically because I knew that his feelings for me were a lot stronger than mine were for him. Wouldn't have been fair to keep going and hurt him worse in a few months.

But then there is this guy, that I have been in love with for over a year, and it's a bit soul destroying at times because he's just not mature enough to want what I want. But having nothing of him is worse than having a little bit of him.

Thanks about my mum :) Things are way more normal now which is great! She's back home bossing us around like she never left!