well i leave to phoenix in about three hours to visit joe already...i think when i get back or i'm almost positive when i get back from this trip he and i will be broken up...last nite he was already partying so no telling if he's already met or hooked up w/other girls and he didn't call me like he said he would...so once again i lose another ( Read more... )

1) What time are you starting this? 1:59 pm

2) Name?: Marie Alisa

3) Date of birth?: 3-8-84

4) Sex?: Female

5) Height?: 5'9"

6) Eye color?: Blue-Greenish

7) Weight?: Umm 155...yeah i'm chunkers, but i'm slowly losing weight

8) Location?: El Paso, TX

9) School?: UTEP

10) Have you ever failed a grade?: No

11) If you have, what grade did you fail?: ( Read more... )

well he's gone, he's in phoenix...i'm so sad, but for some reason i can tell he's gonna be fine w/out me, he's already all happy and excited where he's at and i feel like i've lost him ...things are never gonna be how they used to be for me or us...why does everything always have to end badly w/me?...oh well...i love you and best of luck while you' ( Read more... )

you know what, i've done NOTHING wrong to deserve this lately...i gave my all and once again i was fucked over, but hey it happens...he is just a typical guy whose words don't mean shit and were all fake and lies...luckily this isn't the first time i have to go through this, so i know i'm definately going to be fine...i just wanna be alone, there's ( Read more... )

all i can say is right now i'm the happiest i've been in a really long time...i stayed strong and things are pulling through for me; slowly but surely

i got another job! YAY! i'm so happy! so now i babysit and i work at great american (the steakhouse); that's right, high class restraunt people, uh huh! lol...well i'll be making really good money (i ( Read more... )

YAY! i'm like very giddy or some shit, i dunno i feel like dancing all over and celebrating or god knows what...my strep throat/scarlett fever bullshit is pretty much gone, i just HAVE to finish all my antibiotics, but i don't mind, at least i'm not contageous anymore, hehe, so ya'll know what that means, i can kiss again...lol...sorry peeps...well ( Read more... )

man there's so much to write about, but fuckit, i'm not gonna bore you all....

the doctor's think i have a cyst in my ovary, which beats cancer! i go in next week for a check up

i haven't been feeling good for a few days, i've had a rash and sore throat, so last nite i went to the emergency room and it turns out that i have scarlet fever with strep ( Read more... )

it's sad that when you needed me i was there, but now that i need you, you don't fuckin care!...fuck this, fuck you and fuck being so selfish and stubborn!...one day you're gonna realize who the real people are who care for you and who the real people are that don't!

today was joe's graduation...i'm proud of him, he's got a whole life ahead of him...i feel so bad, i'm just not acting like myself and only i know why, i can't explain it...i'm gonna lose him again if i'm not careful...i love him and care so much, but right now things aren't good for me and i don't want to involve him in all my problems, especially ( Read more... )

thank you god for giving me such great sex appeal! i'm using it to the best of my ability! YEAH!