You got to fight just to make it through

[mariothehero303]

so i was reading through amanda's lj tonite. i usually catch up on everyone's about once or twice a week and comment where i can. job searching, working, and catching up on much needed sleep usually eats up the rest of my day. anyways, i read where they were showing the DCI at regal recently and that got me thinking of how crappy april and may was

Comments

[jaguars_den]

i really dont know how i'm going to deal with mom if she passes away. i dont do well when people grieve, i'm left defenseless and there's nothing i can do and that scared me. when josie passed away, my dad dealt with it well and had a week to spend with family in WVa so that helped. and when jeff's grandmother passed away, all i did was making things worse by becoming completely hard assed on everything. you have no idea how bad i feel about that now and really wish i could go back and change it or do something to make up for it. what hurts even worse is there's nothing i can do.

I don't do well with grief either, because I don't know what to do. I freak out and I'm totally with you on that one. There's so much shit I've done during those periods in people's lives that I wish I could go back and change, but I can't. I wish I could offer some advice, but I'm sure as heck no expert on that stuff. But it might help at least a little bit just to know you're not alone in it all.

U know the # if u need me.

*J*