its been 1 hour...since his passing...im going to miss my grandfather dearly....

my mom left a couple of minutes ago..she went to monterrey to be with my grandfather...these might be his last couple of days so she wanted to be over there as well as my aunts and uncles. still worried...omar and i are by ourselves and im just gonna try to keep things together...im scared of getting that phonecall...

my god im crying...
we got the phone call from my grandma today...
10 days..
10 days to be in the hospital...some kemo but the cancer has spread too much now and because of his age it will make him weaker...
his kidneys are pretty much gone as well as his liver...
everything is failing on him...and my mom doesnt think he'll last the 10 days over there ( Read more... )

my mom was kinda suprised today. she asked me if i had told my grandfather "i love you" yesterday when we went to go see him...i told her of course and he told me he loved me too...long pause...she asks "he did, he told you he loved you?"...i just stared and said "yeeeess..?....why was he not supposed to or something?"...she looks at me and says ( Read more... )

just got home right now...went out with my boys...well with matt and paul. lol went to last pocket for a couple of minutes then left cause it was sooooo boring...went to the park had some fun then left and went to matts. ok i know it doesnt sound that exciting or fun...but honestly i had soooo much fun!! these guys are crazyyyy i love em to death. ( Read more... )

ok im all well...not really BURNT anymore cause now im peeling...lol from the beach. went to schlitterbahn with the boyfriend, the brother and the mother and met some of my moms friends there. while my mom and her friends went to some meeting for teachers and diagnosticians...manny omar luke(friends son) and i all went and had the time of our lives ( Read more... )

ay a aye kareem is back in cali and now im sad...my bestest friend is gone :( well i know his heart is over there and im glad he's happy again..pauls coming back on the first from over there and we're both glad that he didnt have to go back to iraq! damn it wouldve sucked he came back changed hardcore but i still lub him he's the bestest. like he ( Read more... )

update:

the davinci code has been playing and playing and i love it! its one of my favorite movies...that and stay alive. woohoo
i love him even if he is an ass
keren and sam are only the bestest and the videos weve been doing are woowwoooww! crazy lol
and thats all

went to mass with manny and his family today. why...well cause it wouldve been his great-grandmothers birthday so yea...thats mostly what i did today. watching hustle and flow right now lol its crazy funny! haha mannys graduating next week!!! he's happy but he's sad cause shes not here. he called me the other day and was like "baby! baby! its over ( Read more... )

here at home chatting with "our baby" well now the toddler since she got her nose pierced! lol woohoo im so proud so proud lol lifes been all sorts of scattered. mannys working and im glad he has something to do instead of just sitting round after school doin nothing. my grandpas in the hospital but i have a feeling that everything will be ok...but ( Read more... )