so i googled "what to do if you are really scared to get a job" because, yeah.. that's what's up.
and the
first link is from "yahoo answers" .. her question is VERY similar to my case
"I'm 18 and will finish college in a few months afterwards I have to get a job because my parents will make me. My parents keep going on at me to apply for one now. But the problem is I'm pretty sure I have social anxiety and I really couldn't handle going for a job interview, then doing the job itself and having people watch me do it (such as on checkout and stuff) and just meeting new people and talking to people everyday. I can't do it!! The thought of it freaks me out so much and makes me depressed.
I'm not being lazy at all, in actual fact I'd quite like to have a job, make my parents proud and earn my own money. It would be ideal to be able to have a job that I can do from home but I don't know where you find them.
I've always been a VERY shy person. I never made any friends or had relationships. Ever since I was 13 I haven't had a social life so I stay in everyday and do chores round the house.
I've done the online tests and they all say I have it and I suffer at college because of it, I can't talk to anyone or ask for help with my work, it was the same in school. I also have always had a lot of days off because of it.
I don't know what to do, time is running out and I'm scared. I can't bring myself to tell my parents, they wouldn't understand or just think that I'm being lazy.
What do I do? I often have thoughts of killing myself so I don't have to deal with this, it's really getting me down."
aside from the fact that im 19 (it doesn't matter really, i've had thoughts of killing myself since 2011 anyway) everything else is pretty much similar. oh and im still not in college. lol
most of the reply state that i should really seek professional help. great. i can't even tell the entire thing to me parents. how can i approach a professional without the involvement of money? -_-