i found this rather creepy and disturbing.... yesturday i spent a good portion of the day looking for a particular game for my stepson for his birthday party this weekend,... and almost half of the places i went to and later got a good idea to call were closed,... no longer existing for business... and that is because i went to a toystore in the ( Read more... )

ok, i got this information last week on the telley and i can't find my notebook to write it down atequately. the information can be referenced in a book titled REAL AGE MAKEOVER. most of this i do already,.. but some things i need to add to my dialy regiment ( Read more... )

today started out in a pathetic state feeling sorry for myself. it occured to me how incredibly lonely i am. i have spent the week watching and exploring the ideas and phychologies of "A Death in Venice" and "Lost in Translation" a lethal combination i warn you. i have far too much time to think lately,.. iam not sure if it is normal to ( Read more... )

i have made myself rather scarce lately. i have been very producive. don't really have the time to sit on my ass to write in this journal. i have started a paper journal again. the convinience it that i don't have to sit in this chair. i had a great holiday. started yet another project. discovered that it is really fun to make generic AE. ( Read more... )

"every transitory thing is a metaphore" -joseph campbell ( Read more... )

ok, i think i may have won one for the comic muse... last night about 3am i hear and then see damon being upset sitting on the floor,.. of course i freak out and rush to comfort him,... half asleep and concerned i find out that he has read some stories in a journal i kept in the year 2000. it would be this year that we started dating and were very ( Read more... )

"i haven't had a dream ( Read more... )

thinking a whole hell of a lot about my relationships with my parents lately and how it has defined me as a person and a parent... how i will do things differntly/ similar etc... i find myself muttled and uncertain if i am exteamly unfortuanate or very lucky,... it is all interpretation really... rethinking the past to free myself i guess ( Read more... )

like helen frankenthaler i am a woman painter ( Read more... )

good fucking god i need a vacation! i want to travel so badly i can feel every red blood cell in my body ache! i need to be in another country for at least a week!

"am i the happy loss
will i still recoil
when the skin is lost
am i the worthy cross
will i still be soiled
when the dirt is off." -echo and the bunnymen