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this vacation was amazing
a sort of spiritual journey.
while i had so much fun, including, but not limited to:
alex's party-where all three kegs were gone within two hours, i couldnt win a single beer pong game, we had convinced chelsea to sleep over and then couldnt figure out how to turn on the air conditioner, alex was screaming at gabby in the middle of the night because gabby kept calling her boyfriend because she cheated on him, the cleanup at nine am ensured that we didnt have to go to the gym for the rest of the week, i had some quality bonding time with uncle joe, and i got a lot closer to my friends
kelly's stay-she had sosoos much fun, we partied every night with robbie and sarah, and i gave her a firm talking to about playing mean tricks on your friends when they decided to knock on the windows of sarahs bungalow with only me and robbie inside, which resulted in the two of us cuddled up into a ball in the middle of the couch with our eyes closed holding kitchen knives and calling my mom for operation rescue.
splish splash-there are no words to explain, we had a beautiful day, no lines, and the best company. tiffany had a great time with us all weekend, we partied hard and she was so glad she came which was infinitely rewarding
harry potter-of course was amazing, toni was so happy we went even though i had to cover her eyes sometimes, and shes the most adorable little girl ive ever met in my life i want to keep h er and take her away from her dysfunctional family, as sweet and wonderful as they may be their living environment is not exactly conducive to the growth of a young beautiful girl.
and thus, finally, the beach, which brings me to the description of my emotional journey.
everyday we went to the beach, and laid out and went swimming. me and sarah bought floaties to swim on after pool jousting in lindas pool the day of the community yard sale, the boys had fun on them, we had fun on themm, it was a beautiful day yesterday to be on the beach.
matt and brendan came out the same day as gavin and we all hung out and the whole weekend just got the wheels churning in my head.
i thought about when we were kids and how easy things were. we used to run around all night and sneak out of the house and still have energy the next morning, we never got tired of each other, it was so easy just to walk out your door and find a friend. we would go to the beach and swim all day and walk to clay mountain and lay on our towels and have so much fun, always having something to talk about and always wanting to spend more time together. i had a love for each and every one of my friends that warmed my entire life, made it worth living like every day was on fire, just comfortable and familiar and EASY.
i looked at all the faces of my friends this weekend and remembered how much i loved life then, and wondered why i dont have the same kind of happiness in my life anymore. i mean i have happiness, and i still love my friends in the same way, but its so different now. everything is so bland, so routine, so on schedule.
and as we drove to dinner that night, fresh from the shower singing along to the strokes, i watched the sun blazing over the peach fields, ready to retire for the night, and i thought, i really need to get to the beach and watch at least one sunset this summer.
thats when it hit me.
watch one sunset? my own words made it soundlike watching the sunset is a guilty pleasure of which i can only dip into once. something like t hat is something that i should take the time to enjoy every day, on a regular basis, not just once in awhile.
what i need to do is reorganize my life. i need to relax now. my center of focus needs to surround spiritually healthy things, like having breakfast on the deck, taking the back roads, community yard sales, pool jousting, and pink and green leaf cookies.
not on work. not on alcohol and drugs. not on bills. not on how fat i am, or how i need to dye my hair again, or who i look better than.
so that is my vow. im going to start focusing on the more important things, and im going to focus more on my health, physical, spiritual, and mental. i need to regress in order to progress, and return to who i was formally.
this ends my spiritual journey rant. i hope you enjoyed it haha
just thought i should share this with you
my hetero-lifemate-"bestie" :) <3
p.s. i got so absurdly tan, its actually ridiculous
a sort of spiritual journey.
while i had so much fun, including, but not limited to:
alex's party-where all three kegs were gone within two hours, i couldnt win a single beer pong game, we had convinced chelsea to sleep over and then couldnt figure out how to turn on the air conditioner, alex was screaming at gabby in the middle of the night because gabby kept calling her boyfriend because she cheated on him, the cleanup at nine am ensured that we didnt have to go to the gym for the rest of the week, i had some quality bonding time with uncle joe, and i got a lot closer to my friends
kelly's stay-she had sosoos much fun, we partied every night with robbie and sarah, and i gave her a firm talking to about playing mean tricks on your friends when they decided to knock on the windows of sarahs bungalow with only me and robbie inside, which resulted in the two of us cuddled up into a ball in the middle of the couch with our eyes closed holding kitchen knives and calling my mom for operation rescue.
splish splash-there are no words to explain, we had a beautiful day, no lines, and the best company. tiffany had a great time with us all weekend, we partied hard and she was so glad she came which was infinitely rewarding
harry potter-of course was amazing, toni was so happy we went even though i had to cover her eyes sometimes, and shes the most adorable little girl ive ever met in my life i want to keep h er and take her away from her dysfunctional family, as sweet and wonderful as they may be their living environment is not exactly conducive to the growth of a young beautiful girl.
and thus, finally, the beach, which brings me to the description of my emotional journey.
everyday we went to the beach, and laid out and went swimming. me and sarah bought floaties to swim on after pool jousting in lindas pool the day of the community yard sale, the boys had fun on them, we had fun on themm, it was a beautiful day yesterday to be on the beach.
matt and brendan came out the same day as gavin and we all hung out and the whole weekend just got the wheels churning in my head.
i thought about when we were kids and how easy things were. we used to run around all night and sneak out of the house and still have energy the next morning, we never got tired of each other, it was so easy just to walk out your door and find a friend. we would go to the beach and swim all day and walk to clay mountain and lay on our towels and have so much fun, always having something to talk about and always wanting to spend more time together. i had a love for each and every one of my friends that warmed my entire life, made it worth living like every day was on fire, just comfortable and familiar and EASY.
i looked at all the faces of my friends this weekend and remembered how much i loved life then, and wondered why i dont have the same kind of happiness in my life anymore. i mean i have happiness, and i still love my friends in the same way, but its so different now. everything is so bland, so routine, so on schedule.
and as we drove to dinner that night, fresh from the shower singing along to the strokes, i watched the sun blazing over the peach fields, ready to retire for the night, and i thought, i really need to get to the beach and watch at least one sunset this summer.
thats when it hit me.
watch one sunset? my own words made it soundlike watching the sunset is a guilty pleasure of which i can only dip into once. something like t hat is something that i should take the time to enjoy every day, on a regular basis, not just once in awhile.
what i need to do is reorganize my life. i need to relax now. my center of focus needs to surround spiritually healthy things, like having breakfast on the deck, taking the back roads, community yard sales, pool jousting, and pink and green leaf cookies.
not on work. not on alcohol and drugs. not on bills. not on how fat i am, or how i need to dye my hair again, or who i look better than.
so that is my vow. im going to start focusing on the more important things, and im going to focus more on my health, physical, spiritual, and mental. i need to regress in order to progress, and return to who i was formally.
this ends my spiritual journey rant. i hope you enjoyed it haha
just thought i should share this with you
my hetero-lifemate-"bestie" :) <3
p.s. i got so absurdly tan, its actually ridiculous