today I almost had a relapse. I spent a good 10 minutes thinking about how I needed to call up, old friend, and get a cd I had gotten from him a few months ago. I planned out exactly what I was going to say and how I was going to confess the sins I had commited against our relationship, and my once undying devotion and plead for mercy and a new ( Read more... )

"I realize life will start from scratch tomorrow. But with the work I do today, I should be prepared to do it all over again."
Jason Mraz

Working in the retail service industry for the past few years has produced a general dislike for human beans. Somedays I'm better than others. Lately I've just been feeling a little cynical and irratable, or maybe not even that, I've just felt considerably less as good as I did, in August, this is largely in part to the weather and failed ( Read more... )

What is going to become of me this year? The possibilities are endless, nothing could change or everything could change or just a handful of things could change. One thing is for damn sure though I am tired of entertaining every man who walks the face of Utah, honestly there are days that I feel like that’s all I do. If we lived in perfect world, I ( Read more... )

Hello my secret web log, that no one reads anymore ( Read more... )

Marked by persevering, painstaking effort.quietly and steadily persevering especially in detail or exactness ( Read more... )

Inevitability is the sense that the outcome is necessary and inescapable. It had to happen, given these characters and this situation; it is not contrived. It is a sign of high quality in writing.

I don't get this.

Day 1 of letting go ( Read more... )

I'm letting go I've decided, because I have faith there is something better. Check me out. Letting go

I was watching the sunset the other day, all by myself. Sitting outside on a soft patch of grass up where I could see the entire valley. It had been a bad day, and I needed some time to myself, so I could just think my thoughts and remind myself that I'm still real ( Read more... )