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well this weekend was fun..friday fountains and hung out with my dawg lissette, saturday chilled surfed yaa it was cool..went to georgies that night at like 11:30-3 with emily nick and jon it was cool. got messed up..like really messed up but anyways...here please read this...
Ok..well for those of you who dont know well actually I dont think anyone knows but Sam Saul and I are friends again..ya we never had anything against each other and we were just whatever but were friends now, and really I know this may seem bitchy but I dont care anymore what anyone HAS to say or what anyone is thinking...I'm friends with who I want to be friends with, and if you dont like it, too bad because its not like your friends with the person its my life i'm living it the way i want and i'm being friends with who i wanna be friends with... And latley I havent been hanging out with Michele and Jordan and Jessica and Emily and that crowd..I dont know why, and I love them all to fucking death cause they are my best friends and I love them unconditionally but I just dont know anything anymore I wish I had more time to hang out with them but I dont know anymore...my life seems to be rapidly changing and if i make one wrong mistake it could change everything and life just sucks..
And another thing..I'm seeing such a bad change in people..but whatever I'm not going to get mad about it because thats the way they wanna live their life and if they wanna fuck it up over stupid drugs then let them, but once they get older and their getting in trouble because of it they will understand what I was saying..but i'm ALWAYS going to be there for these people no matter what they go through because their my friends, and ive seen people who tell their druggie friends when they get in trouble they wont be there..thats really not a friend..friends care about each other and will always be there for you no matter what and thats how i see it and thats how im always going to live and go about with my friends....yes i smoke, and i smoke alot and im not going to deny it but i dont do it to get fucked up i do it to make my self happy to make me feel better about my self..i have so much going on in my life that no one knows about and i know i shouldnt be using weed as an excuse but its not an excuse and i know what i just said is stupid but whatever i'm just speaking what im thinking right now and this is what i feel.
my birthday is coming up soon 23 days i think it is..and i just wanna be happy..thats all i want, nothing more and nothing less..
im falling and i cant turn back =(
well thats all...
Ok..well for those of you who dont know well actually I dont think anyone knows but Sam Saul and I are friends again..ya we never had anything against each other and we were just whatever but were friends now, and really I know this may seem bitchy but I dont care anymore what anyone HAS to say or what anyone is thinking...I'm friends with who I want to be friends with, and if you dont like it, too bad because its not like your friends with the person its my life i'm living it the way i want and i'm being friends with who i wanna be friends with... And latley I havent been hanging out with Michele and Jordan and Jessica and Emily and that crowd..I dont know why, and I love them all to fucking death cause they are my best friends and I love them unconditionally but I just dont know anything anymore I wish I had more time to hang out with them but I dont know anymore...my life seems to be rapidly changing and if i make one wrong mistake it could change everything and life just sucks..
And another thing..I'm seeing such a bad change in people..but whatever I'm not going to get mad about it because thats the way they wanna live their life and if they wanna fuck it up over stupid drugs then let them, but once they get older and their getting in trouble because of it they will understand what I was saying..but i'm ALWAYS going to be there for these people no matter what they go through because their my friends, and ive seen people who tell their druggie friends when they get in trouble they wont be there..thats really not a friend..friends care about each other and will always be there for you no matter what and thats how i see it and thats how im always going to live and go about with my friends....yes i smoke, and i smoke alot and im not going to deny it but i dont do it to get fucked up i do it to make my self happy to make me feel better about my self..i have so much going on in my life that no one knows about and i know i shouldnt be using weed as an excuse but its not an excuse and i know what i just said is stupid but whatever i'm just speaking what im thinking right now and this is what i feel.
my birthday is coming up soon 23 days i think it is..and i just wanna be happy..thats all i want, nothing more and nothing less..
im falling and i cant turn back =(
well thats all...