first off, i would like to say that i am sorry if what i said to rachel made you feel like i didn't pay attention to you. after i said it, i wanted to say something of the same nature to you, and then dannie got me distracted, along with everything else.
secondly, i give you a whole lot of credit for doing what you're doing. the past week has been one of the shittiest weeks of my life, mostly to do with my weight, among other things. for some reason, though, i cannot stick to any kind of diet or exercise plan. then i got my period yesterday morning, so it definitely went out the window. i also feel like i have no motivation, though sitting here with my rolls is motivation enough. so congrats to you on doing what you want to do. i wish i could stick to a diet even half the way that you can. i commend you. ;o) because all i feel like i do is complain and complain, do nothing about it, and eat more to make myself even fatter, because i feel like there isn't enough time in life to limit what i do and eat. but i NEED to. :o( any
what u said wasnt what affected me, it was what was already in my head. i keep comparing myself to rachel and i cant. i lost my weight differently that's all. everyone should notice her bc she worked hard and feels and looks good. regardless, u are beautiful. i think you look better this year than last year! not that u looked like crap but i think u have a glow about that is amazing. plus u just made some huge changes in ur life with ricky and honestly, your mind and body are going to react. the only thing i can suggest about food is cutting portions in half and not eating past 8pm. my mom always told me that it wasnt what she ate, but how much of it and when. honestly, i dont think you need to do a thing, but that stuff may help ur mind. it helped me start. anywho, if u ever need to talk to someone, im here. we arent the closest of friends, but sometimes its nice to talk to someone that isnt up ur ass. i love you girly and thank you for being sensitive. marn.
oh marnee.. i love you too. i definitely might have to take you up on that. when do you guys go work out usually? i'm not going to intrude if you don't want me to. but i want to get a sense of what you guys do so maybe i can try to add it to my busy schedule. i wish i could read and walk on the treadmill at the same time. i wish i could RUN but i can't. and yeah, i've made some changes, but this all really happened senior year when i started taking the pill. i hate blaming it on that, but i didn't really change anything but that, and i gained about 20 pounds. then i came here and became even more lazy, and i'm a good 30 pounds over where i want to be. i don't feel comfortable with myself, no matter how many times ricky tells me that i'm fine. i will definitely take your advice though.. i always eat until i'm about to explode, and i eat all the time, no matter what's going on. i love eating, and i love eating everything. blah. and it keeps me down. i'll figure out something. thanks though!!! ;o)
I'm attempting to do cardio..that is me jogging on the treadmill for about 20 minutes...every tuesday, thursday and sunday. then on monday and wednesday i am going to do something like pilates or yoga. i leave friday and saturday open for rest and alcohol consumption..haha. u can intrude all u want. hey, the pill isnt an excuse, its a fact. no matter what people say to you, its you that has to feel good about yourself. whatever you need, im here babe.
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secondly, i give you a whole lot of credit for doing what you're doing. the past week has been one of the shittiest weeks of my life, mostly to do with my weight, among other things. for some reason, though, i cannot stick to any kind of diet or exercise plan. then i got my period yesterday morning, so it definitely went out the window. i also feel like i have no motivation, though sitting here with my rolls is motivation enough. so congrats to you on doing what you want to do. i wish i could stick to a diet even half the way that you can. i commend you. ;o) because all i feel like i do is complain and complain, do nothing about it, and eat more to make myself even fatter, because i feel like there isn't enough time in life to limit what i do and eat. but i NEED to. :o( any
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