a head full of thoughts.....

[marquittevelour]

and no one to explain to

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[tattooed_fairy]

Well... This is probably not the response that you were hoping for... and maybe you don't even wanna hear, but seein you put it out there I'll leave comment... I don't think I could bypass this without. And this is because I know EXACTLY how you feel. I have struggled with the whole religion/faith/homosexuality thing, and have battled it for as long as I can remember. I always found it so hard to deal with the "not being right" part... and spent so long trying, first of all, to convince myself that I wasn't gay because it was "wrong". When I finally admitted to myself that I AM gay (after dating many guys, just to see if "this one would be different" or "this time I'll feel something") then I rebelled against the church, came out and worked on trying to accept myself in my "imperfect" form so that others could then accept me. This went on for a few years until I felt that I needed to fix myself again, that I needed to try to "give up girls for god"... I forced myself back into church, was honest about myself and was praised for giving

[nilsby]

I don't know if this will help you any, but a priest once told me (I'm Catholic) that your conscience is the final authority. In the same way that a little child can't be held accountable for an action that he doesn't understand, you can't be doing wrong if you believe you're doing right. That was the best spiritual advice I ever got.

*hug* I hope you sort through things and get your feet back under you.

[motorhome]

e-mail me if you would like to talk about faith from someone who has been through it all. or if you would just like someone to listen.

-tylerchott@gmail.com

[marquittevelour]

i havent heard from you for a day and a half! thats funny because i was just thinking about you the other day. i dont really have anyone here in Boise to listen to my ramblings... so i figured livejournal was the best place to put my feelings. because then i can physically see them and not push them down and try to forget about them. you will probably be getting an email sometime soon.

thankyou=)

something you don't want to hear by someone you don't want to hear it from

[mizzvampyr]

first, no i'm not stalking you...remember, i'm a sean stalker and with that comes links to you...so surpise, here i am.

i should stop now but i'm gonna keep going...

second, while we don't have the same problems or the same spirituality there is something about surviving a suicide attempt that really wakes you the fuck up.

and while the dark thoughts of suicide can plague you...nothing is goin...fuck it, nevermind.

Re: something you don't want to hear by someone you don't want to hear it from

[marquittevelour]

not sure where you were going with this..... weird you messaged me. i had a dream about you the other night.

Re: something you don't want to hear by someone you don't want to hear it from

[mizzvampyr]

how did it go?

Re: something you don't want to hear by someone you don't want to hear it from

[marquittevelour]

i got rid all my animosity for you. and i have in real life.