i climb to fall, suffer, hatred, deceit and pain
in an effort to avoid pissing off even more people i have taken everything to here. most likely this will make sense to none of you.
hello dearest courtney. are you understanding now why i barely listen to you when you talk about how you're feeling. how you don't feel like yourself? because on SOME DAYS RARELY VERY RARELY MIND YOU you don't know if it's a dream or not. and okay. i put up with you. i talked to you about it, said it's fairly normal now and then. but you KEPT TALKING AND YOU TALKED TO EVERYONE ABOUT IT AND JESUS FUCK STOP ACTING LIKE YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE LIKE THIS
until you spend an hour out of your control with something else taking over your mind and pulling the strings and alienating your only friend and what i just fucking did and manage to keep that under wraps to everyone in RL on top of everything else
no
i will not listen to you properly about it
because you are exactly like me two years ago and i know that shit. and i know. it is not as bad as you are making it out to be. and you are not the only one. until you get that you are not the only one through your head. i will keep repeating that whenever you bring it up
sigh
much better,