It may just be my usual mid-winter Blahs but

[marta_hari]

I really feel like going home. This is not a sudden craving, in fact I have felt it since Miami. I have occasionally been distracted from it with the aid of cerveca but I really don´t want to spend my energy, time and money getting drunk in order to be content

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[chazella]

fuckity fuck fucking kids erasing things. Fuck.
Umm, yeah.
No one starts at a self-satisfying job. they start at an entry level satisfying job then year by year the jobs get more satisfying. Gotta pay the dues. You can always get an entry level job then quit after a year, travel for a few months then get another until you have the XP to considered for the job of your dreams. Sort of the opposite to what you do now. Of course you need to know the job of your dreams to figure out what you need to do to get it. And getting 2 months off a year is one qualification but what do you want to do day to day at your job? Actually you could be a teacher...
Don't mention it to your parents.
Furniture and stuff are really irrelevant, it's a journey to furnish your house. Your parents will get you a bed.

[marta_hari]

I still have the old bed somewhere, you remember, the antique trampoline? And I know about the job situaion, it's just so daunting at my age, I don´t want to be sitting around the watercooler with my 18 year old coworkers. Shudder.
I´ve though of the teaching thing quite a bit though. I know I can easily get a job in Poland doing that or get TESOL certified and do it some where else. This right now is my most likely option. Then I can raise enough money to open up my own Sex Shop/Ice Cream (I originally wrote Cram which would have been quite funny) Parlor.
You're probably right about the folks though, Some dauntless part of me still holds out hope of one day having a productive conversation with them.
God I miss you, do a reading for me will ya?
Love to all!

[chazella]

You can have a productive conversation with your parents as soon as you know what you want to do kwim. Till then it's just fustrating because they don't know what's in your heart and mond for your future.

Daunting at your age???? How old are you? You may be too old to get a man in the bar (ha remember that night?) but starting a job is something people just have to do at any age. Or like with Nick you'll have 65 year old co-workers and 20 yr old co-workers and they'll be working for you. Try telling a 65 yr self proclaimed genius what to do and a 20 yr old with a degree from Kelsey that "almost makes me an engineer". ha they even annoy me.
Anyhow you need to figure out what you want to do day to day, work with people, work alone, etc. Then plan. Start at the beginning not the end.

I AM NOT

[marta_hari]

too old to get a man in a bar!!! (of course I remember, Dana started crying! Who can forget that... and the toilet seat getting ripped out) I figured out what(who) I wanted to do and then I planned... 2 days ago was the beginning and I choose not to think of an end.
And I love the parentals... even though they are 5 HOURS late getting here... they are so irresponsible. I coulda spent an extra 4 hours being a cat today!

[kelly_jones]

Hope and ponder at will, my dear. You'll find your path. And I quite enjoyed the PC-ness description of your dealings with your parentals!

[marta_hari]

I am thinking of writing a guidebbok actually..."Family Politics: A PC Survivor Manual". I have no path. I am working on sharpening my machete and carving out my own.
Love ya