maybe I'm totally off base with this, but it seems to be the prevailing attituted that I see ( Read more... )

while, I'm sure you know, work sucks, it IS nice to work in an environment where I can show up 5 hours late for work, and have my boss tell me it wouldn't be a big deal if I left, ten minutes after I got there.

and tomorrow is the last day for me at the (hopefully) last summer at grabber.

yay, school on monday

I just sat here and cried for the last hour and a half, and I have no idea why.....

I hate it when something like this happens, and I have no idea how to fix it, or even what caused it....

I'd go to sleep, but that means I'd have to deal with the nightmares I'm sure I'll have....

great...

hmm, this makes me happy, most of those thing in my life that were in limbo, aren't anymore, was a good week for getting shit figured out. Yay for not living in purgatory anymore.

seems like my whole life is in limbo right now.
So many things that need resolving, and so many of them that are almost completely out of my hands to resolve.
does life have a fast forward button?

yeah, so I guess I get to go sit in my room, and pretend I don't feel all these things I feel, great...

Why is it that I have to work up energy to eat? I like the taste of food, it's not hard to make, and it makes me feel good to eat. But, I never seem to have the compunction to eat. I know that I have a shitty stomach, and that I don't get hungry, but that's different than not really wanting to eat. It kinda scares me, because if I don't make a ( Read more... )

Yeah, definately got the shakes again...

I really hate it when that happens. I feel all jittery, my hands shake, and it's hard to think. It's really a pretty awful feeling...

A lot of things trigger it, lack of food, nervousness, random times. I really wish I could make it go away, it's not a fun time at all.

hmm, I like being able to not think. And for 2 and a half hours straight.

I'll have to get into trouble more often.

Thanks girl.

So, the summer depression/manic/depressive traits have started to kick in ( Read more... )