Mist and Frost

[marycaitlin]

In my fantasies, I would have been able to use this time during break to become more whole, to work out every day and come back looking better, maybe even whiten my teeth or shrink my pores or some other thing that's in my head from reading Nora's 'Glamour' on the plane coming here.  I have books to read, plans to make, suitcases to pack.
    Too

Comments

[thannyblaster]

I can relate to the last paragraph, as I also hail from a small town. Although I lack your particular perspective, I do speak to people whom I don't like when I randomly encounter them, but I usually am not terribly friendly to them. I don't regularly interact with any of the shady people from my past. I don't enjoy the random encounters with them, but they generally don't ruin my day, either.

It sounds like the dread you have of these situations is worse than the situation itself. If you see someone you don't like, in most cases you can just excuse yourself and not have to deal with them anymore. Like a lot of things, such a gesture is only awkward if you make it awkward by worrying about it and second-guessing yourself.

ahh, yes, home

[centrefuge]

I can particularly understand not having the friend circle I used to have, dear. I purposefully didn't attend the first invitation I had to a gathering,that being a former friend's "No-Pants Wassail Party." And it seems I've been a bit justified in my avoidance of people past. My best friend from high school just called asking what kind of present he should get to make up being the world's biggest jackass to his gf. Upon asking what he did, he said it involved too much alcohol and a mutual female friend of ours. ...Oops. Good luck with that one, bud!

But hey, remember you'll be in some form of contact with us while you're abroad, I'm sure! And as for certain people and niceties, I think it's better that you don't straight-out lie to them to be polite. That will just come back around and make you feel horrible inside, which is not the goal.

As always, let me know if you need someone to talk to from KY whose name begins with "n" and ends with "ora"!

Exploding emotions

[ineffiblenee]

Dear Mary,
I completely empathize with emotional stressors causing you to feel a sense of being overwhelmed. I suffered through alot of stress from about May to November of this past year trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. The good news is that it does get better - one does have the have the experience of feeling safe and that one can take care of oneself someday. I promise, it will happen, though, and once it does, you'll know that you are ok. Until then, I hope that you know that I'm here if you ever want to talk. cell - 270-774-5263
much love,
Lane