kinda sorta freakin' out

Aug 07, 2007 22:32


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discabcutie August 8 2007, 05:10:02 UTC
yeah, you're still young. you're not a child anymore, but you have just entered the fun part of your life. you are young but able to do whatever you want with your life. you probably have as little as you ever will tying you down. these are the days you are going to long for when you are 45, so don't waste your 20s and 30s wishing you were 19. :)

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=) marygraceguerra August 9 2007, 04:58:31 UTC
very true. i definitely am not wishing i was 19. i love being in my 20s. i think i'm at my happiest moment of my life right now, thus far.

i think the age 24 kinda freaked me out because i did the math of when i wanted to be married by.. and if i get married, i wouldn't want kids right away.. but obviously, i can't have babies too late in life.. so, essentially - even if i didn't want the thought of kids to tie me down, if i actually wanted them, it technically will always limit my time in its own way. wow, long sentence. heh. but regardless, i'm not freaking out anymore (or as much).. and i know i still have plenty of time. and the thought of marriage and/or kids at this age should not be something to worry about too much.

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cheerchump5 August 8 2007, 15:00:32 UTC
I know what you're saying. I'm having a hard time dealing with this growing up thing too, especially after calling off the wedding. Because at least my life had a direction. I had this whole plan for how things were going to play out in the next few years, and now I don't have that. It's pretty scary. I always said I wanted to be a young mom with at least ONE kid by 26...but that probably won't happen now. And yes, we're still young, but I wanted things to go as I had planned.

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marygraceguerra August 9 2007, 05:02:15 UTC
yeah, like i wrote for amy's comment.. just the thought of babies and having a family can really make someone feel old at 23 and running out of time. and it's so ironic because 23 is far from old.

calling off the wedding is a huge deal. i couldn't even imagine the thoughts that run through your head. i hope things are all right with you. life might not work out as you planned in your head, but i really believe things happen for a reason. if you ever need to talk about anything, you can give me a call. our means of communication shouldn't be limited to livejournal ;)

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cheerchump5 August 9 2007, 12:37:24 UTC
you know what's kind of funny...i used to work with this lady who is 36. and she doesn't seem 36 to me. Like, I could have sworn she was MAYBE late 20's, early 30's. So if THAT doesn't seem old to me, why do I feel like I am getting old at 23?? I think because it's so close to 25, and 25 SOUNDS old that that is what is making me over-analyze my "life plan".

Time is just going by so fast, and I'm going to be 30 before I know it. I feel like at this point I should be well into a really good relationship that has a definite future...not just being single and all "where is my life going!??!"

That was the hardest part of calling off the wedding. Realizing now that I have to start ALL OVER with someone. And maybe it will be a COUPLE someone's before I find THE one. ugh.

I agree....we should talk outside of the confines of LJ sometime.

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marygraceguerra August 11 2007, 19:32:18 UTC
i'm pretty impressed with you. some people have that fear of starting alllll over with someone and have it actually dictate their decision of staying in the relationship. and then they end up unhappy and regretting their decision -- after many years or so have passed. so, to be able to make a decision that bold takes a lot of courage and energy. i think you will be just fine, for sure.

p.s.
i turn 24 in exactly a month. eek! heh =)

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