An update, a personality test, among other things. (Long. ripped from facebook)
'm still alive. I figured I'd say something, to indicate there's still a pulse up here in good ol' Santa Maria California.
Anyhow, I've been listening to Rip Slyme a lot lately. I like their sound, maybe I've got shit taste for music, but I like it. I think I should start applying at schools soon. I think CSU Long Beach would probably be a good place to start. I graduate this semester from JC, so I figure I should get to that.
Speaking of which, I should probably drop that fucking class. Lol, oops.
I just got over being sick really bad, and my airways are still a little damaged so I'm still coughing up blood a little bit in the mornings, but the doctor says I should be fine. Chest X-rays all checked out so fuggit.
Life's been good lately. I kinda liked the hot weather we had earlier this week, that shit was amazing. Its days like that where I walk over a mile in 95+ degree weather to buy a sandwich and not be someone who complains its too hot (but rather saying its just right) that point in the direction that if I'm going to move, its probably going to be somewhere a lot warmer, like probably down south like SoCal. I think I'm almost good enough to move, but there's still some things I need to learn to do and take care of, like cook. Luckily for once in my life I'll have the equipment to facilitate such learnings, so we'll see how that turns out.
Its kinda scary being at some deep crossroads where life won't be the same kind of comfortable place where everything's taken care of for you. I'm probably going to move for a year and work at a company out in Texas. Being so far away from home, working. Its a risk, I mean, if I get sick out there the way I was last week but... I also feel I'm just the kind of person to do something like that.
I'd like to work for a year then return and get a job back in California and go to school part time while working full time and living on my own. Taking school at my own pace, I have no rush, I still have a full long youthful life to live out. It feels like my parents are pushing me to GO GO GO GO.
So fuck it. Lmao, let's go.
I dunno, I've just been reflecting a lot lately. In spite of not even being a full time student and without having a job, I manage to keep a positive outlook.
Maybe I just needed the time to really reflect on what I want to do. Its difficult when you're doing a lot of different things at once. Having the certainty of doing something and sticking to it is tough. Especially when its the pivotal actions one does at this precise moment which pretty much dictate the next 30+ years of your life.
Then there's the question of the girlfriend situation, and how do I feel about relationships?? With the way how uncertain my future lies, I don't feel like I'm ready for a relationship, but a part of me yearns (miralo muy chingon, using big words YEARN) for a sort of stable life where I won't be moving for a few years, so I can finally get down and TRULY tell a member of the opposite sex, "Hey. I'm not going anywhere for awhile. Wanna grab some Snickers, come over and maybe have some sex?"
I'll probably get slapped.
If I do, I'll just say as she's walking away. "What, you don't like snickers?"
And what of the MR2? Well, I suppose I should sell it, but a part of me wants to keep that bad boy. Its tough, I'm usually not this indecisive about stuff, but I want to stubbornly keep it.
I could use the cash though.
God damnit.
The one thing I'm really looking forward to now is Anime Expo this summer. AX indicates that friends from all over the place are coming to Santa Maria just to hang out with me. They'll all crash in a hotel so it'll be fun. I'll take 'em around and show them places. It'll be nice for them to see shit like the cliffs and LIVE SEALS, SEA FUCKIN' MAMMALS at Shell Beach, the Clam Chowder at Splash Cafe, San Luis Obispo and that general area like Shin's Sushi, I could show them some of the more quiet and cool places like Harris Grade, chill out, out there. LOL take them to Pirates Cove, the nudist beach. HAW
After all that then we take a party caravan of cars down to AX and do what the good Lord intended for us young people to do. There's so many people I've yet to meet, parties to attend to, costumes to be worn, and friends I haven't seen in forever. If it wasn't for the familiar faces and important people to me, there'd be no reason to go at all. Its not the venue that matters, its the people I've met through out the years.
A friend of mine describes himself as a sort of Knight-Errant. I thought it was an interesting kind of modern-day twist to the archaic archetype one could put for oneself like that. I can't say I befit the same description for myself. I'm more of a chaotic good free sword wandering around, with strong skills and some morals, but mostly out to improve oneself. Think Guts from Berserk, or Hiko Seijuro from Rurouni Kenshin. And yet, with a sense for adventure and exploring, like any Pirate would.
I've gotten crappy at Martial Arts and I haven't danced in awhile, further reducing me to an even more novice status. I'm a lot better now and not sick anymore, so I need to get back to it and working out. Geez. My legs are shit now, I can't kick at all, and that REALLY bothers me. My popping is STILL abysmal all of these years later, and my Locking still isn't much to write home about. That kind of bugs me.
Not to mention, I haven't driven in the past 5 months. I've rode passenger shot gun a lot and watched other people drive out to places like Bull Canyon, but I haven't done it myself. With only a month away before I start driving again, I'm really starting to feel like wanting to drive again badly. Even if its just in traffic, driving was one of many outlets I had where I really could just put my all into it and really find solace in things, even if I wasn't all that great yet.
Now that I look back on all of this, I realize I always have a lot of my mind, but I never really write about it. I probably should, since writing gives the future me a good looking glass back in time to go, "Hey, this is how I felt back then and this was what was important to me. God, I remember feeling like that." Its kind of like a photograph or a time stamp to indicate a particular sense of self in that moment of time. One might even remember what they were wearing and where they were sitting when that was happening.
My cosplay plans??? Luffy, Lupin, Miguel from The Road to El Dorado, and Onizuka. Fuck your mother and suck a dick.
Oh yeah, I got a haircut two days ago, so I cleaned up real nice. I also shaved too, god I hadn't shaved my face in awhile so I looked haggardly and gross. Maybe I'll post a pic from my phone later.
To anyone who managed to sit through and read through all of this, thank you. Its not easy sitting there and taking a few moments to live vicariously through someone else's life, put yourself in their shoes and see through the same eyes as them. Especially when they have a lot more to say than you probably care for.
Anyway, here's a personality test I took, here's the link, and here's the actual crap they said about me.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
And so, in conclusion, I'm Ron Burgundy, and go fuck yourself San Diego. Here's some Rip Slyme to play us out.
PLAY US OUT, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? WE'LL DO IT LIVE, FUCK IT.
Anyhow, I've been listening to Rip Slyme a lot lately. I like their sound, maybe I've got shit taste for music, but I like it. I think I should start applying at schools soon. I think CSU Long Beach would probably be a good place to start. I graduate this semester from JC, so I figure I should get to that.
Speaking of which, I should probably drop that fucking class. Lol, oops.
I just got over being sick really bad, and my airways are still a little damaged so I'm still coughing up blood a little bit in the mornings, but the doctor says I should be fine. Chest X-rays all checked out so fuggit.
Life's been good lately. I kinda liked the hot weather we had earlier this week, that shit was amazing. Its days like that where I walk over a mile in 95+ degree weather to buy a sandwich and not be someone who complains its too hot (but rather saying its just right) that point in the direction that if I'm going to move, its probably going to be somewhere a lot warmer, like probably down south like SoCal. I think I'm almost good enough to move, but there's still some things I need to learn to do and take care of, like cook. Luckily for once in my life I'll have the equipment to facilitate such learnings, so we'll see how that turns out.
Its kinda scary being at some deep crossroads where life won't be the same kind of comfortable place where everything's taken care of for you. I'm probably going to move for a year and work at a company out in Texas. Being so far away from home, working. Its a risk, I mean, if I get sick out there the way I was last week but... I also feel I'm just the kind of person to do something like that.
I'd like to work for a year then return and get a job back in California and go to school part time while working full time and living on my own. Taking school at my own pace, I have no rush, I still have a full long youthful life to live out. It feels like my parents are pushing me to GO GO GO GO.
So fuck it. Lmao, let's go.
I dunno, I've just been reflecting a lot lately. In spite of not even being a full time student and without having a job, I manage to keep a positive outlook.
Maybe I just needed the time to really reflect on what I want to do. Its difficult when you're doing a lot of different things at once. Having the certainty of doing something and sticking to it is tough. Especially when its the pivotal actions one does at this precise moment which pretty much dictate the next 30+ years of your life.
Then there's the question of the girlfriend situation, and how do I feel about relationships?? With the way how uncertain my future lies, I don't feel like I'm ready for a relationship, but a part of me yearns (miralo muy chingon, using big words YEARN) for a sort of stable life where I won't be moving for a few years, so I can finally get down and TRULY tell a member of the opposite sex, "Hey. I'm not going anywhere for awhile. Wanna grab some Snickers, come over and maybe have some sex?"
I'll probably get slapped.
If I do, I'll just say as she's walking away. "What, you don't like snickers?"
And what of the MR2? Well, I suppose I should sell it, but a part of me wants to keep that bad boy. Its tough, I'm usually not this indecisive about stuff, but I want to stubbornly keep it.
I could use the cash though.
God damnit.
The one thing I'm really looking forward to now is Anime Expo this summer. AX indicates that friends from all over the place are coming to Santa Maria just to hang out with me. They'll all crash in a hotel so it'll be fun. I'll take 'em around and show them places. It'll be nice for them to see shit like the cliffs and LIVE SEALS, SEA FUCKIN' MAMMALS at Shell Beach, the Clam Chowder at Splash Cafe, San Luis Obispo and that general area like Shin's Sushi, I could show them some of the more quiet and cool places like Harris Grade, chill out, out there. LOL take them to Pirates Cove, the nudist beach. HAW
After all that then we take a party caravan of cars down to AX and do what the good Lord intended for us young people to do. There's so many people I've yet to meet, parties to attend to, costumes to be worn, and friends I haven't seen in forever. If it wasn't for the familiar faces and important people to me, there'd be no reason to go at all. Its not the venue that matters, its the people I've met through out the years.
A friend of mine describes himself as a sort of Knight-Errant. I thought it was an interesting kind of modern-day twist to the archaic archetype one could put for oneself like that. I can't say I befit the same description for myself. I'm more of a chaotic good free sword wandering around, with strong skills and some morals, but mostly out to improve oneself. Think Guts from Berserk, or Hiko Seijuro from Rurouni Kenshin. And yet, with a sense for adventure and exploring, like any Pirate would.
I've gotten crappy at Martial Arts and I haven't danced in awhile, further reducing me to an even more novice status. I'm a lot better now and not sick anymore, so I need to get back to it and working out. Geez. My legs are shit now, I can't kick at all, and that REALLY bothers me. My popping is STILL abysmal all of these years later, and my Locking still isn't much to write home about. That kind of bugs me.
Not to mention, I haven't driven in the past 5 months. I've rode passenger shot gun a lot and watched other people drive out to places like Bull Canyon, but I haven't done it myself. With only a month away before I start driving again, I'm really starting to feel like wanting to drive again badly. Even if its just in traffic, driving was one of many outlets I had where I really could just put my all into it and really find solace in things, even if I wasn't all that great yet.
Now that I look back on all of this, I realize I always have a lot of my mind, but I never really write about it. I probably should, since writing gives the future me a good looking glass back in time to go, "Hey, this is how I felt back then and this was what was important to me. God, I remember feeling like that." Its kind of like a photograph or a time stamp to indicate a particular sense of self in that moment of time. One might even remember what they were wearing and where they were sitting when that was happening.
My cosplay plans??? Luffy, Lupin, Miguel from The Road to El Dorado, and Onizuka. Fuck your mother and suck a dick.
Oh yeah, I got a haircut two days ago, so I cleaned up real nice. I also shaved too, god I hadn't shaved my face in awhile so I looked haggardly and gross. Maybe I'll post a pic from my phone later.
To anyone who managed to sit through and read through all of this, thank you. Its not easy sitting there and taking a few moments to live vicariously through someone else's life, put yourself in their shoes and see through the same eyes as them. Especially when they have a lot more to say than you probably care for.
Anyway, here's a personality test I took, here's the link, and here's the actual crap they said about me.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
And so, in conclusion, I'm Ron Burgundy, and go fuck yourself San Diego. Here's some Rip Slyme to play us out.
PLAY US OUT, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? WE'LL DO IT LIVE, FUCK IT.
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