it's not true when they say eating avocados every day is unhealthy

Sociopath

I'm straight
I'm bi
I'm gay
I'm a little straight
I'm 90% gay
I'm asexual
I'm aromantic
I'm gay
I'm gay
I'm whatever

words jump out at me and I experience synesthesia
chaining joy
and pain
of things I thought I've forgotten
a flashback of when I was young
jump back to now
where our hands meet

December
- Drugs
- Cyberpunk
- Music

January
- Drugs
- Cyberpunk
- Music

Transcendental experiences only.

Inside
Inside
Inside

I miss the touch, the kisses
Your gaze

I waste away
Golden, Silver, Bronze
Dust colours me

And I cry for the lost
While I contemplate
In my dark corners

Still bodybuilding but I hate eating.

Promise:
- Keep hate alive and use the fire and you'll survive
- Never trust and you'll survive
- Do whatever you can to get what you want and you'll survive
- Discard their feelings and you'll survive

Even when I open up
I don't see you
I don't feel anything
except the tar of your disdain
creeping down my face
coating my charcoal heart

I feel anger
and hate
I want to destroy
I want to get away

I was born in a world
already dead
we mitigate
and hope that it'll all be done
they starve
they deny
they die
I exist in a world
that's already gone